i like to listen to music that makes me want to die or makes me angry or makes me really happy because I'm totally normal and well adjusted. Updated on 7/14/2023.
Which "you" are you going to be? Hmm, inside the mirror do you see (Ha) Someone else in that body? ... For the puppets on TV There is comfort in the strings If you're gonna control me At least make it interesting theatrically ... How does it feel to be free? Hmm, "why don't you try it yourself?" (Ha) The gate opened on me ... Maybe we're all cold machines Stuffed in the human skin With human sins sewed up by the gods of city ... You gave me strength Hopeful curiosity Maybe there are still happy answers left for my discovery What's the colour of the electric sheep you see? And if you love me Can you love your everything too, for me?
Would you say That someone who had every intention to be brave Was a coward? Must be great being you Power comes as second nature Must feel amazing to be longed for, longed for (I opened my eyes) Cemented excuses to my lashline So I could see no more
I am fire Burn those who dare to care for me And my fuel are memories, fuel are memories of you They perish with the heat, perish with the heat So I can move on Flower of iron Shrivelled up to hide the imposter in me "Hey, why did you leave? Why did you leave?" Don't let those words out of me Imposter's about to speak So I chewed on 話梅糖 ... You got the wrong head Would you take mine instead, take mine instead? Stop leading me on ... You showed me I still had an umbrella full of love inside me Without you, I could never be So sincerely thank you for everything It pains me to think That my happiness turned out to be one of those fingers That strangled you until you couldn't breathe Not ashamed to go this way I just want to choose my fate I'm on my last white rabbit 奶糖 ... I am iron In my blood, it streams roots deep With bruises on my knees, bruises on my knees And ribs crushed down to pieces, crushed down to pieces Nothing left to hold on Actually wait I do have one regret That day before you left me "You're my everything" Before my thoughts began to speak I bit my lip, said nothing And just sucked on 麥芽糖
Now it's time for another vendetta Going through the shelves Picking out my pre-written persona (Ha) Children of the city sees only the neon stars Reflected upon the murky gutter sky Don't ask me why I desperately wish to be included in the city's night ... Pick up a knife and stab a familiar warm body Learned to fight before I knew love or bitterness of coffee Snippy scissors cut down the strings I set myself free Only to figure out everything I chose was by proxy ... It takes my heart being broken and broken again (Broken and broken again) To know that I am the reason why (The reason why) The sufferings never end ... I desperately wish to be noticed by the city's eye
One by one The pages remind me you'll always be a villain For you, angels have fallen Now they're gone See? Now they're gone Forever gone From the hell that served as my one and only home Though it may hurt today Tomorrow I'll be heading my way ... I tried, I tried What did we expect? My dearest friend Tell me when we shall make it end ... Stop now One by one Your desires convince me you've always been a human For you, the shelves have fallen Now they're gone See? Now they're gone Forever gone From the stage that allowed us our one and only dreams What's more to say? Pain always catches up to those who chooses to stay Though it may hurt today Tomorrow I'll be heading my way
You became the "me" who you despised We swallowed the time Let us rewind Lament If you wanted me to speak If you wanted me to think If you wanted me to carry on our dreams Each loop we live through (Each loop we live through) The standards inside me The line I drew for me Lowers to the earth Lament Why'd you make my voice stutter? Why do truths never matter? Why'd you curse me with "you're a natural born genius"? ... Buckled up on velvet seats Sceneries were passing by Not so different from our hell Not so different from our home Then I realized Someone's heaven could be the source of my torment Life is allowing yourself Allowing yourself to step on fire (Life is to consume) (Life is to become food for each other) Shed tears on bloodied routes (No matter evil or good) (Life is fairness, life is inequality) Eternally in hell (Life is in the motion) We live by default ... Lament (Nell) If you wanted me to live (Inferna) If you want me to forgive If you want us to pretend like we're civilized humans Each loop we die through (Ques te anim?) (Each loop we die through) (Ques sej mentalle?) The justice inside me The ego fending me (Ques io fuocca?) Rationalize my sin (Ques qui Diavola?) Lament Why do deaths end my torture? (Cossa non naturha) Why can't anyone feel my hurt? (Via si violenzalle) Why'd you crown the most violent to be champions? (Bruschia sej diva, verha ignisa) In this inferno (Inferno) (A! Lamenta, lamenta) We built for ourselves (Cis senza) (Lamenta, lamenta, lamenta) Reviving each other in this hell
I was gonna wait for you So this is not an act of spite It's a visceral coming-to She wrote an album And that's something that I can't do But what I can do is spit the truth And it all leads back to you ... I've lost a piece of me in you But you've lost all your past ... I don't care, I want you here As long as you're happy, I don't care
Wasting your time You're wasting mine I hate to see you leaving Fate worse than dying
I think this time I'm dying I'm not melodramatic I'm just pragmatic beyond any Reasoning for thinking I've got Fuckin' rabies, or something I think this time I'm dying I think this time I'm dying I think I've lost my mind Blurring the fact and the fictions If I could just break one more night Maybe I could wake up and feel alright My optimistically set alarm clock time Serves only to mock me with flashing lights I think I've made my choice I'm a deceased playing victim Slip the face, slip the victory I think I've made my choice Sink secluded in hatred Void the plans friends are making I think I've found my voice I'm a leech sucking blood bags Taste defeat, it's a sandbag
I thought I couldn't love anymore Turns out I can't But not for the same reasons as before I use everyone I ever meet I can't find the perfect match Abuse those I love While I ostracise the ones who love me back On the path of least resistance I find myself salting the earth Every time that I miss you I feel the way you hurt And I don't deserve you You deserve the world Though it feels like we were built from the same Dirt I'm nothing but a problem, leave you crying overnight And I hate to say it but your sister was right I can't focus on the future, only my short sight I hate to say it but your sister was right
You know it takes a lot to move me So if you figure it out, tell me I trace figures on your smile lines Work a formula to cure me? And I'm lonely There I said it Nine million people I always seem to add them up I could go away I could pack my things and be gone before you wake You know I've tried hard to love me too It always seems to fall in through Maybe one day I'll live in La Jolla Drinking cocktails out over the water My own personal sunset To give each day its own diploma And you know it's funny Amid my backseat taxi jaunts I'm trying to ignore the skyline So I don't figure out where you-
There are still some things I'd like to say to you Some things you should see But since were not that close no more I'm gonna have to let it be Although it's really annoying And it's bugging me a lot I'm just gonna be quiet And maybe you will work it out But I doubt it
So I follow you around - Not a word from you You can even hear my heart break No more lovesongs for you No more songs at all for you One day you'll be alone And where will I be then – I'll be gone I am not invisible, I'm not blind Everybody can see me cry Everyone but you (oh oh oh) Everyone but you (no no no) And so I follow you around - You are laughing now But I'll be laughing too (before you know) ... This is the last time I'll say That I ever loved you But this is the last time I swear One day you'll be alone And there will be no songs for you
I never believed in a miracle But I'm watching her by the waterfall A punch in my teeth when I least expect it She could never say anything wrong But she could barely say anything at all Right? Stone cold feeling When my words don't reflect my intentions Stare at the ceiling What's going on in her head?
Oh, I'm in paradise You show me heartbreak a thousand times I don't care to be or be caught without sweet misery by my side Wide awake and paper-thin Prey to anything that's televised It's safe to say my ignorant state of bliss is why I'll stay in tonight 'Cause she's so bright 'Cause she's so bright
I made a mess of July I'm stuck in the sun, I soak and then I dry I'm lost and your legs go on forever now We gotta find a new place to hide out We gotta find a new place to hide out ... You gave me a look that seemed so honest and sweet So honest and sweet But will you pain for me? But will you pain for me? Will you pain for me? Will you pain for me?
It's been a week or fifteen Natalie hasn't said a word to me And I keep singing to the mirror Why do you hurt so much? Help me understand your pain, your ache, your loving, ooh
I know you're there I know you're listening You deserve to get to know The person you're trying your damnedest to let go I know you care Whoever you are You have a thousand reasons not to trust Whoever I am For whatever it's worth I also have no clue as to Who I actually am But I know This is the first time in my life That I am sure I drove like 27 hours Replaced two tires during a storm And I won't leave 'Til you open up the door
The person who I was On the day you and I met Was deeply ashamed of who she had become So deeply ashamed of what she'd done And when you showed her questions The 36 questions She looked ahead and saw Who she wanted to be She built a past Made up a history Details that fit this person named Natalie Let's say goodbye to Natalie She was 33 On her fake IDs She was real to me I don't expect For you to understand perfectly I loved her, too, as much as you And she'd want you to bury her with me
Yes, I'd have dinner with Judith So I could ask questions, or maybe one question Who are you? And why were you living a lie? It would probably end in a fight But once I knew the truth, the real truth Maybe I could stay strong And politely send Judith out into the night That'd be nice Yes, I would break bread with the woman Who lied to my face Because in my head I've been wondering How she kept up the pace To live in a lie for so long To string her husband along How in the hell could she think That was okay? I'd choose dinner with Judith Over Obama and over Rihanna And even my celeb wife Charlize Theron I would die to dine with all three But if I'm being real, and I want to be real In a world full of people The only person I'd want over for dinner is you Yes, in a world full of people Who all haven't hurt me The way that you hurt me The only person I'd want over for dinner is you
I have to leave you behind I know that sounds harsh But that's the reality I wish we had our old life But that shit's impossible That's just reality I should have told you the minute you came But you sounded distraught standing out in the rain And I wanted to let you in, swallow your pain Because that's what I always do But I made a pact with my moms Under no circumstance Should I hear out Natalie Unlike you I keep my word And promises I make become my reality You like to live your life blurring the lines Bending the rules to make yourself look better But all that I wanted was something concrete And to know for a fact you are real What I know is I still love you That's my reality You know I'd give anything to wake up with you next to me You and I spent two years of our lives lost in your lies Far from reality And it felt like a dream 'Cause it was Why do I always give in? That is on me to change That's my reality I can't do this to myself again I deserve someone who accepts reality I can't imagine rebuilding my life with you Constantly on the edge of what I know is true And you would string me along like you always do Knowing I will never let go
I have to leave you behind I know that sounds harsh But that's the reality I wish we had our old life But that shit's impossible That's just reality I should have told you the minute you came But you sounded distraught standing out in the rain And I wanted to let you in, swallow your pain Because that's what I always do But I made a pact with my moms Under no circumstance Should I hear out Natalie Unlike you I keep my word And promises I make become my reality You like to live your life blurring the lines Bending the rules to make yourself look better But all that I wanted was something concrete And to know for a fact you are real What I know is I still love you That's my reality You know I'd give anything to wake up with you next to me You and I spent two years of our lives lost in your lies Far from reality And it felt like a dream 'Cause it was Why do I always give in? That is on me to change That's my reality I can't do this to myself again I deserve someone who accepts reality I can't imagine rebuilding my life with you Constantly on the edge of what I know is true And you would string me along like you always do Knowing I will never let go
I have to leave you behind I know that sounds harsh But that's the reality I wish we had our old life But that shit's impossible That's just reality I should have told you the minute you came But you sounded distraught standing out in the rain And I wanted to let you in, swallow your pain Because that's what I always do But I made a pact with my moms Under no circumstance Should I hear out Natalie Unlike you I keep my word And promises I make become my reality You like to live your life blurring the lines Bending the rules to make yourself look better But all that I wanted was something concrete And to know for a fact you are real What I know is I still love you That's my reality You know I'd give anything to wake up with you next to me You and I spent two years of our lives lost in your lies Far from reality And it felt like a dream 'Cause it was Why do I always give in? That is on me to change That's my reality I can't do this to myself again I deserve someone who accepts reality I can't imagine rebuilding my life with you Constantly on the edge of what I know is true And you would string me along like you always do Knowing I will never let go
It's been three whole years of me thinking 'bout you every day Sometimes for hours, sometimes in passing Saw you from the bottom of the staircase Stood out for hours as you complained About how you haven't seen your friends yet That you're too drunk to stand and You not knowing if you can love him forever Bullshit, you fucking miss me! There, I said it! I guess I'll talk to you in a few months Sitting drunk on the sidewalk I guess I'll get up, I guess I'll go for a walk Press my shoes against the pavement I swear, this has gotta be the hundredth Time I've thought of you tonight
I hate worrying about the future 'Cause all my current problems are based around the past And I hate when you call me late at night Just to check in to make sure I got nothing to be sad about But it's all right, and I'm okay I won't need your help, anyway, ah, well I hate having to think about my future When all I wanna do is worry about everyone but me I'm so tired, or maybe just bored I can't really tell the difference whenever I'm talking to you
Sharp as a tack, but in the sense That I'm not smart, just a prick In the fingers and the toes Of all of those who show interest in me And from where I'm standing It looks like I'm way long overdue I know what you meant when you said, "Fuck you" Breaking up never felt so cruel And now, I'm tired, and now, I'm dead to me Can we act like we never broke each other's hearts? At least mine—I don't know how you felt from the start Oh, that's vile, oh, I'm cruel, oh, it's goddamn mean I sure as Hell know one thing: You sure ain't dead to me
Trying hard not to look like I'm trying that hard Failing miserably at everything, including that Making plans in my head right before I go to sleep Trying to think of who could make a better me than me (Maybe I'll shoot him an email) (Maybe he'll give it a go) Then, I'll be free to just evaporate, disperse, or implode Picking at holes in my jeans; there's so much God in my gene pool ... Lord knows I'm stuck between two good things, but I just wanna get out Mom knows I should have been home an hour ago But I'm still outside, not doing anything wrong Just walking in circles, replaying high school songs in my head Because it's better than lying awake
On sunny days, I go out walking I end up on a tree-lined street I look up at the gaps of sunlight I miss you more than anything I don't need the world to see That I've been the best I can be, but I don't think I could stand to be Where you don't see me And autumn comes when you're not yet done With the summer passing by, but I don't think I could stand to be Where you don't see me
If I keep myself at home I won't make the same mistake That I made for fifteen years I could be a new girl I will be a new girl I wish that this would go away But when I'm done singing this song I will have to find something else To do to keep me here Something else to keep me Here's my hand There's the itch But I'm not supposed to scratch ... How do other people live? I wonder how they keep it up When today is finally done There's another day to come Then another day to come Then another day to
Tell me where I came from, what I will always be: Just a spoiled little kid who went to Catholic school When I am dead, I won't join their ranks 'Cause they are both holy and free And I'm in Ohio, satanic and chained up And until the end, that's how it'll be I said "Make me love myself, so that I might love you" Don't make me a liar, 'cause I swear to God When I said it, I thought it was true ... There's really just one thing that we have in common: Neither of us will be missed Saint Bernard sits at the top of the driveway You always said how you loved dogs I don't know if I count, but I'm trying my best When I'm howling and barking these songs
You left some holes in the plotline I left some holes in your clothes And we can argue semantics over who left who first But one thing's for sure: I needed you most I'm not good at very much But I've got just a few exceptional skills That I doubt anyone could hold a candle to For instance: I can go three months or more Without ever being sure of anything
I don't wanna fucking be here anymore I'm leaving forever, if you miss me whatever, I don't care I'm tired of your face And the way that you hate everything You make me want to start smoking Cigarettes so I die slowly Anything that's bad for me You're killing me You're killing me I don't wanna fucking hear it anymore I know you got problems And we've all got problems too I'm sick of being your shoulders You know I need shoulders too You make me want to start rolling Fat ass blunts till I start choking Anything that's bad for me You're killing me You're killing me
I wish that I knew how to hate you Or maybe not to give a damn How do you make leaving graceful I'm giving up the best I can I might be no good Sweetie, you're no better We used to be sugar and now all I taste is bitter ... I thought you'd be the one to save me
You're invited to my pity party You see me smile, but I won't be happy Balloons and tears here for everybody 'Cause feeling sorry is my favorite hobby You always said that we would go far I'm not the brightest, never claimed to be a star You're invited to my pity party You see me smile, but I won't be happy ... It's not my fault I'm born this way A messy brain I'm not okay I keep on staring at my phone It helps me feel less alone
I don't have to feel good I just wanna feel better And I would change it if I could, if I could I'm sick of sadness all together Oh, I could use a distraction to cope with my life Something a little more healthy See the sun every night I don't have to feel good Oh, I just wanna feel better
Maybe you're just too good Maybe I'll run away Maybe I'm over you Maybe I shouldn't stay Maybe I just don't care Maybe I talk too much But baby I'll be there Yeah, baby I'll be there It's been a little hard I've been a little tired But maybe all along I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid
We all make stupid mistakes sometimes But I make them more than most And it's my fault that I live my life Running away from ghosts Too many skeletons Too hard to keep them in the closet where they've been We all make stupid mistakes sometimes You're the one that I miss the most I saw that a text I sent was left on read Well, I guess I get the message
I got swept up in your storm You were a hurricane I wasn't ready for Maybe we could work one day I hope that we could work one day You tried to find me in someone else Are you lost? Have you found yourself? Will I ever get over you? ... I thought that I meant more to you Turns out I had things to lose Maybe I will learn one day I hope that I will learn one day You built me up to break me down I find it hard to smile now
Sleep don't visit, so I choke on sun And the days blur into one And the backs of my eyes hum with things I've never done Sheets are swaying from an old clothesline Like a row of captured ghosts over old dead grass Was never much but we made the most Welcome home Ships are launching from my chest Some have names but most do not If you find one, please let me know what piece I've lost Peel the scars from off my back I don't need them anymore You can throw them out or keep them in your mason jars I've come home All my nightmares escaped my head Bar the door, please don't let them in You were never supposed to leave Now my head's splitting at the seams And I don't know if I can Here, beneath my lungs, I feel your thumbs press into my skin again
You would kill for me And knew that I'd do the same And it cut me sharp Hearing you'd gone away But everything goes away Yeah everything goes away But I'm going to be here until I'm nothing But bones in the ground And I was there, when you grew restless Left in the dead of night And I was there, when three months later You were standing in the door all beat and tired And I stepped aside ... But I am fine with where I am now This home is home, and all that I need But for you, this place is shame But you can blame me when there's no one left to blame Oh I don't mind All my life I've never known where you've been There were holes in you The kind that I could not mend And I heard you say Right when you left that day Does everything go away? Yeah, everything goes away But I'm going to be here 'til forever So just call when you're around
Hug me again as you once did Don't leave me alone, don't leave me Why was I born like this? Why does it hurt so much? Why am I crying again? If with one click, and I can reset everything Can I be your favorite this time? I will definitely make you love me again
I want you to be the last thing I see. I'd rather die than say goodbye to you. I'd rather die. I prefer you over three meals a day. Am I gonna have to say goodbye to you now? I'd rather die.
Why am I still here, oh? I don't mean to be complacent With the decision you made, but why? In the back of my mind You died And I didn't even cry No, not a single tear And I'm sick of waiting patiently For someone that won't even arrive In the back of my mind I killed you And I didn't even regret it I can't believe I said it But it's true I hate you
I'm the person that you made me I wonder how you're feeling lately And I just can't help from wondering why 'Cause you treat me like I'm garbage Tell me that I start it I remember what exactly you implied And it goes like I fucking hate you and everything you seem to like A fiery hatred I bring out and I don't know why You so two-faced baby, this a piece of mind This how you are baby, you're the one that I despise You realize that I make mistakes I know you're cold inside I know you're filled with hate Sometimes people never change And, and I'm happy to say I fucking hate you and everything you seem to like That you seem to like I fucking hate you and everything that you seem to like That you seem to like
Hey do the thing that you don′t really wanna do, It's not creative but i swear it's good for you. Must pass the test, must be the best! Must spend each minute being tired, worn-out, and stressed! ... Why not relax for a moment, Maybe two? Modern society is only about due Not about be when mind is free, Why not spend some time with friends and family? I wanna do, what I wanna do; but when am I allowed? I wanna be who I wanna be, but time is running out. I′m really scared, about dying; my fearfulness also extends to you Please, please don′t leave me; I won't leave you I′m scared of dying, are you scared too? ... I'm really scared, about dying . My fearfulness also extends to you Please, please don′t leave me . I won't leave you I′m scared of dying, I'm scared of dying, I'm scared of dying, I′m scared of dying, I′m scared of dying, I'm scared of dying, I′m scared of dying, I'm scared of dying, I′m scared of dying
This page is staring back at me I'm afraid to put a mark on its face Oh, I'm just tryna' introduce you To this idea that I've grown used to It's like sharing a dream with someone Once you say it out loud, it can't be undone I'd jump off and into your arms But I can't trust the fall Take my voice, I'm giving it though I don't feel safe at all (I can't trust the fall) ... So scared to take a knife to my chest Let you see the heart that's inside Oh, I'm just tryna' introduce you To this idea that I've grown used to
Close my eyes and I feel like I'm not even in my life And I never wanna leave As I see myself running out of time Mistake after mistake, it's safer if I distance myself If there's a way for me to not do what I have done for so long Don't be sorry, if you know that I'm lonely I don't feel like you know me well enough to understand Mysterious ways of dealing with a couple of down days It's like you're stealing what I had for a while and using it yourself In my mind I see what I wanna see and if it goes wrong I think i'll never be the same, but i know it's only make believe So don't be sorry, if you know that I'm lonely I don't feel like you know me well enough to understand If you can show me that your thoughts are all holy I'll pretend that you know me like you always wanted to Maybe it stays as it's always been Hazy and they see what we can't see Please let me know if you want me around And I'll try my hardest to be good So don't be sorry, if you know that I'm lonely I don't feel like you know me well enough to understand If you can show me that your thoughts are all holy I'll pretend that you know me like you always wanted to
I need to cry, but I can't Get anything out of my eyes or my head Did I die? I need to run, but I can't Get out of bed for anyone Not for you, ooh ... But I need to understand When I can power through And when I need some help from you When I should stand my ground And when I need to just sit down Sometimes I act like I know But I'm really just a kid With two corks in his eyes And a bully in his head I wanna make A colour that no one else has seen before I wanna be so much more I hope that she Looks at me and thinks, "Shit, he is so pretty" Something I can't believe
So don't lie to me I know I'm not as cool as I'd like to be But why do you feel so down, again? I know I'm not a very good friend Why do you feel so down? Sure, that's not something I'd stick around for Why do you feel so down? Oh God, I know you think I'm safe and sound, I'm not Why do you feel so down? I've gone weak and I'm sick of speaking So hear me out you're the cure or something more I think you're one of a kind so I'll never like myself I think you're older and wiser so I won't let you tell I think it over and over and hope you're thinking too I think it over and over and hope I'm over you ... Everyone, I messed up again Everyone, I messed up again, ohh Everyone, I messed up again Everyone Ohhh
You think I'm charming for a minute Funny for a second Until I turn into a joke Trying to stay positive Not an easy way to live Step inside of my brain We can take it nice and slow At the pace you wanna go Laugh right through the pain She said I can't find a thing I don't like about you And I'm like don't worry, you will I don't wanna find a reason to doubt you And I'm like don't worry, you will I'm a freak, I'm a fraud I'm a child, I'm flawed She said I can't find a thing I don't like about you And I'm like don't worry, you will Oh you say you really love me Right up until you leave There's nothing I can do to help The conversation will get ugly A dream into a chore You'll say you need to find yourself
I'll be blunt, I'm a time bomb (Tick, tick, tick, tick) You say I'm a God But I know I'm not Why do I feel like? (Nothing) Literally a million other reasons I gotta pretend I'm okay But I'm not, I'm not, I'm not, I'm not! What you want, bitch, I'm nothin' but a notch I went diggin' thru' my lungs, and it's all I really got When am I gonna learn to give it all up? (Nobody wants you, nobody wants you) When am I gonna learn there's never gonna be a forever for me A letter from me delivered to me? ... Help! I'm not fucking God! I'm not fucking happy, I'm never happy! No! ... What a waste! What a waste! What a waste! What a waste!
(I like being alone, I don't know why) But now you're here, and it's too late Already got too much on my plate Need attention, nothing that I do is worth a mention And I know I got my way, but I'm still bitter And I woke up and my face covered in glitter ... I'll take all your shit, I don't care that you're dying I'll wake up your parents, they'll beg me, they're crying I'm sorry, that was kinda mean, I wasn't trying
I talk about nothing (So you understand) And that's how I know I'm dying alone Isn't it lovely To not feel alone when no one's around? It makes me happy To feel at home, dying alone Laundry is done, folding is fun Eating a bite, riding my bike No one to share with, no one who cares if I'm not around or run out of town And now I'm free-falling (Does that make you want me?) You talk like you know me (When I'm not around) I think you should know - you're dying alone ... All I wanna do is make friends but at what cost? Think I'll stay home I'm dying alone All I wanna do is feel love but to what end? Think I'll stay home 'Cause I'm already dead
You, oh, you You're fallin' through Got me thinking, but it's still not you though Wait, it's me What you thought it'd be? Something else is But it's not your fault, it's mine ... You know I don't speak out I'm feeling fairly weak and I can barely speak I started to freak out 'Cause I can barely talk, I feel too weak to walk I'm trying to leave now I'm feeling fairly weak and I can barely speak I started to freak out 'Cause I can barely talk, I feel too weak to walk
How do I disappear without anybody knowing? Will anybody even miss me when I'm gone? ... Life looks so easy, all you gotta do is close your eyes Please don't call the reverend, I don't need no help Bury me a legend, I'ma dig the grave myself I can't remember when I last felt alive Don't try to save my life, I'm already on my way tonight The blood is on my hands, it's either do or die Don't even try to save my life (Save my life)
I was dying to find a way to kill time (a way to kill time) Now, you're gone and I can't ever say goodbye ... This feeling's going to my head I'm thinking things I shouldn't say You circled me inside my room I couldn't go, go, go, go ... I don't want you to think I got bad intentions Never wanted you inside You made it your mission, yeah Didn't wanna hurt no one But you just went and made it fun I hear you're lookin' for a way to fight the corpse bride She's workin' in my mind And you're lookin' for a way to crush It's not enough You fucked up your last try We were in the studio, I was just playin' You were all workin', I was all playin' You were talkin' business, aiming with your weapon I was on your hit list, I felt the compression I'll never go, I'll haunt your studio You won't think of words when you write at all You'll just hear me singing this song You'll think that's okay, you'll just sing along You just copy everything we do If I wasn't me, I'd copy me too
You're just a stones throw away Yeah, you make me feel like home When it's all dull and grey Next to you is where I'm pole And I swear, I'll be alright Yeah, I swear, I'll be just fine Make me wanna jump Make me wanna cry Make me wanna feel Make me feel alive Make me feel alive like you Alive like you ... Swear, I'll be alright I said "I swear, I'll be just fine" You've got a mindset too I've got a mindset three You said "You know that you could call if you ever need me" I said "I swear, I'll be alright" Yeah, I swear, I'll be just fine
Right person, wrong time You best believe when I say it I haven't felt this way in a long, long time 6 Dogs by the seaside, think of you when they play it For a, for a long, long time, and that's alright My friends all ask what's on my mind And I can't lie, it's you sometimes So I just smile, think of you and I And I, I, I, yeah, fuck ... Oh no, I can't help but hate the cold I told my mom this morning that I'm never coming home ... Then you called me up and you said you hated me Although I'm not upset, I'd love to reconnect sometime We could chit and chat 'bout this and that I could fuck with your head like you fuck with mine Call me up, wish you hadn't dated me Although I'm not surprised, I wish you didn't have to lie We go tit for tat 'bout each other's past You can tell me you hate me baby, that's just fine ... From the last time you gave me a call To my last dime, I really gave you it all We used to pass time, now we're just strangers, oh god I hate this part more than I thought I would It's far too hard, I think I should Go back to bed, go back to bed, go back to bed
Any more words? I think you've spoke enough 'Cause the pubs are empty and they're closing up When you're spitting spite as fast as saliva But with the prose of a standard English drunk, she says "I hope the saltwater ruins your clothes And I hope you spend the rest of your life sleeping alone I hope the problems that make your life harder Sit stubborn in your stomach like your kidney stones", and yet All this over a kiss! You weren't there, why you pressed by this? Now it's turning three in the morning The bouncer's put you on his third warning But I'm still here, I'm not leaving! You won't get what you need (All this over a kiss!) You know it's always the same, it's all just a game If I had it my way, you'd sleep on the concrete floor What'd you say to me? (All this over a kiss!) 'Cause I'm not sure I'm not sure they'd let you off easily
It's 3:45 (AM) And I just bite my tongue Update me on your life And now you've found the one But I don't like his eyes And I distrust their name And I hate their haircut They look like a prick (A prick) But it's all the same Would be daft of me to cry Your tongue is razor sharp I miss when it would fight mine Left your heart on standby By the way he holds you Bet he serenades you I can't really blame you And I can still smell her perfume Did it rub off on you? ... Why can't you be a dick? Why must you be so nice? It's hard for me to move on When I don't really hate you (I don't really hate you) (I don't really hate you) (I don't really hate you)
I lost the passion that comes with living Since I started university I took a geography course to learn the datelines And maybe use a sextant But now I just press facsimiles And you're exactly who you wanted to be Well, that's what you said ... I don't miss you I miss the thought of what we were 'Cause this is the part where I shut up and let you infest my brain Wrap your arms around my cortex, dig you in and let you drain You'll never get rid of me, oh, I'm like a fucking disease! I'll make a home in your gut 'Cause it's somewhere warm to sleep And what was your thought when you realized You'll never feel naïve love again? Was it pain or was it sickness? Were you proud of who you'd been? The shyness waiting for his phone calls Replaced by apathy and dating apps You held his hands, it felt like flying Now he's just another man ... It's okay Anything to make me feel less numb It's okay Anything to make me feel less numb It's okay Anything to make me feel less numb It's okay
I can hear my name on your lips And I won't forget the last time we kissed Though we aren't together, I feel your grip And I'm not ashamed of what I'll miss I know I used the word "forever" I promise I think we'll be better If we don't let months turn to years But we'll always know what kept us here We're another story Can hang on every word you ever told me We know that every ending Opens a door to a new beginning
We spend our days locked in a room, content inside a bubble And in the nighttime we go out and scour the streets for trouble ... During the summer, take me sailing out on the Atlantic I won't set my sights on other seas, there is no need to panic So, honey, take me by the hand and we can sign some papers Forget the invitations, floral arrangements and bread makers ... Hey, hey Marry me, Archie Hey, hey Marry me, Archie Hey, hey Marry me Archie Hey, hey A-R-C-H-I-E, oh, yeah
Are you lonely in the space that you've made only for yourself Do you wish sometimes that you could be somebody else Are you worried for a future that you haven't got all planned out Are you scared of facing those feelings that you've never felt On a dark night cold night laying on the bedroom floor Looking up to the ceiling wondering what I'm here for Haven't slept in a while but the sun will come up soon Looking in a mirror thinking one day I'll love you One day I'll love you Blue tears that fall Down from my face They fill my view Like the blue sea I drift alone Through restless waves To navigate Through this blue world This blue world
Ultimately I don't understand a thing I try to do the best I can I know you try to do the same We're just so bound to make mistakes You could call it a disposition I apologize for all your tears I wish I could be different But I'm still growing up Into the one you can call your love I don't know if I'll ever be enough I'm throwing in my chips I guess I tend to push my luck And ultimately I believe we'll be okay It's so cliché to say these things, but repetition is a key I think I'm better when I'm with you But I worry when you're gone I think I need to learn to love myself I must learn to be strong So for now we'll say goodbye Although it pains me in my heart Your words they come to me in memories They sing to me like songs It won't be long until I'm here Soon I'll make my arrival Under shady trees A quiet street The roads that I have traveled Ultimately it's a beautiful thing Like flowers blooming in a lonely field The petals drift through crossing winds They find their way to river streams That scent the water beautifully, it takes me back to you It takes me back to you
So slowly a sunlit dream pulls me out of sleep Feel the morning through the blinds I get to thinking 'bout your sunkissed face And a quiet place I could give you all my time You know I wanna be your rock, my love You know I wanna be your light In darkness how you find me just in time To tell me what I needed to hear So if you don't know what you need You can leave it all to me Don't want you worried about a thing I know you'd do the same for me 'Cause you're so lovely You're so lovely I can't help but fall for you‚ love When you love me It's so lovely loving you Oh-oh‚ oh-oh So lovely loving you Oh-oh‚ oh-oh Oh-oh‚ oh-oh So softly a tender breeze brush against my knees on a summer afternoon I get to thinking 'bout the hazy days Under August shade that I used to spend with you I didn't realize it was all I wanted, what I had My riddled heart I had to cradle back together just to see It's all like magic to me You do magic, baby When you love me You're so lovely I can't help but fall for you‚ love When you love me It's so lovely loving you Oh-oh, oh-oh So lovely loving you Oh-oh, oh-oh
Tell my mom that I'll call her back And tell my friends that I miss them bad Tell my date that I'm on my way Apologize cause I'm running late Went way too fast now I'm out of time Gave it my all and it's just alright I'll keep it calm cause I'm stuck for now Just don't know what follows after Can you tell me what you're after I'm caught up, In more shit, That I know, doesn't really matter Can you stay a little longer And I'll follow your lead, and we'll see We can get untangled Do you, get me? Or are you just being kind now? Don't know better But given the circumstances I'm fine What's your feelings? And am I wasting my time now? Could be, better But given the circumstances I'm fine Given the circumstances I'm fine Given the circumstances I'm fine Given the circumstances I'm fine Given the circumstances I'm Can you tell me what you're after? I'm caught up, in more shit, that I know, doesn't really matter Can you stay a little longer? And I'll follow your lead, and we'll see What we can get untangled
I love it when you say What's really on your mind No need to overwhelm yourself, there's always time to unwind I wanna take a chance Can't say I didn't try I'm here for what I found, you're held up on what we left behind The timing's never perfect, love, that's just what people say When they think back to the moments not sweating the smaller things Sometimes I feel regret, sometimes I wish that things would change But sometimes is just sometimes and you know sometimes never stays I love you all the same It's just a situation Don't let it get between what we want, yeah, what we could be I love you more each day Sometimes I can't explain it but I feel it and I don't want that to change I'm just dreaming I know you're thinking That the summer left us behind I'll be waiting I might be crazy But I think that it's worth my time What was it that you lost? Been chasing all this time? I'll try to fill the gaps but I feel its a losing fight I know it's not ideal There's probably better ways But this ain't my first time, although I've never been to this place We're coming around My heart starts to pound From everything, all the possibilities Ya know those things Once dragged me down But now they're a cloud Where I can wait there patiently, because I love you all the same
I only think about it in the night time Always in the night time Up too late lying on the floor Thinking I've been here for so long Just a little too long Think I need to get out of the door But I've never been a brave one Always was a tame one Always double checked all that I knew But that safety is a danger Yeah there's only one way out it's through Oh through and through Oh through and through I'll find my way to you Though I'll admit it may take me some time Oh through and through Oh through and through I will be there for you even if we may seek a separate life And I don't know what I've been waiting for It feels like I'm always losing my way I'm doubting every step I take I know that everything finds its place Although I wish I knew where to I guess I'll have to see it through
I'm not tryna complicate none of this None of this so Lemme just, lemme just, lemme just Come tell you how I feel Okay, um I'm just looking for some balance and some trust I'm just looking for some mutual love But all I get is unrequited Why my world always on fire never chilly I used to hate the serious, I used to be so silly But I'm not a kid no more No I'm not a kid But I guess that's what we always said Yeah, I guess that's what we always said, hey And we can get lost in an off beat rhythm Feel the way that you're movin' and I think that I get it And I think that I will 'till the sun come up When the sun goes down we gon' get in touch 'Cause I don't even know I don't know why All your love I'm tryna find I'm so lost in you And all that you do, hey And here we go I Never really know why I'm just tryna take it slow See where it goes 'Cause you know, that you'll never really know Even though I can feel it in my soul But you never know, why And here we go I Never really know why I can't let it go But you give me so much hope So I gotta keep you close Yeah you're giving me the most And I never know No I never know, why All the silly things we hide Just to keep our peace of mind No I never know No I never know No I never know, why
No matter where you are I'll always be your friend Until my very death I'll love you with my heart And if this has to end I'll have to understand I know I've been quite dumb But, baby, we're quite young First things first, I'm sorry I'll take the blame, it's on me You were my little shorty And I've been one big dummy Forgive me For being real stupid Will you give me A chance to just redo it? I'm addicted to your love, but my brain been goin' nuts I've been going crazy, going crazy, going crazy Do you know (Do you know) How it feels (How it feels) To be a fiend (Be a fiend) For someone (For someone) That you love? (That you love?) But to be (But to be) Such a klutz (Such a klutz) What the fuck? (What the fuck?) Why you still with me, still beats me But I'm thankful that you still see me My brain is killing me and it eats me I don't deserve you
Far away far away never getting close Guess it's best cause if you came back all you'd ever see was ghosts Maybe I should of gone with you Warning signs were always there If I stayed here any longer I might lose my chance forever Yeah I'm sinking in the quicksand of a place I once called home That's growing everyday but I've never felt more alone Well you went out on your own I wonder if you feel the same Loneliness is quite the company I hope that you're okay I've been thinking 'bout the dreams I used to have as a kid As an astronaut, an actor, or some crazy scientist Where did that ambition go I used to want to do the most Now the only thing I want To not be middle aged and broke What a joke But I can't bring myself to laugh I haven't in awhile You were always the best at that Now the winter's coming fast It always catches me off guard Long nights, short days, cold winds, old scars Between a rock and hard place I'm learning the hard way I haven't caught a break like a- on a hard day I suck at my fortes I'm lacking in practice Some things I need to talk about that can't be said with rapping And I'm never in the loop no more No one tells me what's happening I'm far away from medicine but still need my prescriptions If it's free advice I'll listen probably heard it before I guess it's not about the how but getting out of the door
Yeah I went through hell and back to find myself But I am not the same as who had left, no I am not the same, I'm reinvented from the head-toe Still, I'm on that same old Still, I'm grinding just to reach a payroll Since I was like yea-tall and yea-old I was always cooking, you were feeding off the day-olds I ain't really know it but I should though I ain't really get it but I could though Something bout the distance got me shook though Head so full of "I don't care"s and "I don't know"s But I been hiding from that part of me, still keep it close My tired face my normal face, yeah, you know that ain't change I got a goal, I got a check so you know I can't stay Yeah, you know I can't stay And I see the sun, it sets down on my tired city Wind blowing on my face, I wonder if it's drifting To somewhere far away, I'd like to come along and I'd like to come along and, oh I'd like to come along and I see the sun, it sets down on my tired city Wind blowing on my face, I wonder if it's drifting To somewhere far away, I'd like to come along and I'd like to come along and, oh I'd like to come along and Woke up right side of the bed Still broke, still Joe, but it's all on my head I got hope, got love, got a spot on the edge I got goals, got flows and I'm tryin' to wed I might Go deep, hoping it'll be okay I can't wait until I see the day No sleep, hold dreams in pillowcases Now we gon' see it's so amazing No choice but I ain't say it controllin' me Holds me down to the ground when I'm feelin' so over me Get surrounded by sounds thinkin' this how it's supposed to be I ain't feelin' as lonely and I ain't hip with the rosary but I got hope got faith in this I feel great, feel dope tryna take a risk With my friends, know foes gonna hate on this See nice colors every day, no shade in this
What you want me to say? That I'm caught in a daze? That I'm stuck in autopilot but ain't flying away? There's a lot I could say Got a lot on my brain What you want me to say? That I'm stuck in this place? That I'm only a human and that I've made some mistakes? I just think I'm afraid And that's okay That I feel all alone? That this house ain't a home? That I'm too damn stubborn not to do it alone But can't do on my own? Think I just need to know That it's alright But I'll never make it through it if I don't try Wait up, say what? they don't think that I really got it I don't either I'm just being myself all the Way up, stay down, to earth Don't let 'em get you out it Don't let 'em get you out it No, don't let 'em get you out it Ain't no thing go and say it to me I got— shh nevermind, they gon' hate on me I may not be the greatest me C'est la vie But I ain't slowing down 'til Mercedes keys Like beep beep, point A to B Nah, you ain't phasing me Yeah, where am I taking me? Ah, guess I'll wait and see And all my travels seem to bring me back to this place And all my life I've just been looking for the right way And I've been thinking to myself that this is who I gotta be And I've been jivin' on my own to find the right pace And I've been watching all the clocks, I need the timeframe I wonder when will come the day, I wonder when I'll see those dreams
I kinda know what you mean It's never just what it seems I gotta get to there just to find out it's only the beginning Walking through this world, I seem to fall in love with everyone I meet But at the end of every road it's always just you and me It's always just you and me I go too slow, then I speed up I talk too much, then not enough I overthink, then not at all I think too much about it I go too slow, then I speed up I talk too much, then not enough I overthink, then not at all Don't think too much about it Got the sunshine on my face Let's play with it All day, yeah, them Fun times come my way I'm takin 'em, so great when the Sunshine on my face Let's play with it All day, yeah, them Fun times come my way I'm takin 'em, so great when the
And I'll always dream of you Watch the sunset over time You're the one I can't refuse And darlin' that's alright (alright) Do you believe in me cause I believe in you too
If you feel the same, well, why would we wait? There's words I can't say But my love's not simple, I'm fragile And you don't even know No, you don't even know it all I want it all I've got this lovesick feeling But there's nothing like it, nothing at all I know your heart's still beating And I want it all, I want it all Or nothing at all Babe, we push and we pull, we give and we take But we've got a lifetime to kill, a second to waste Oh, what a shame But my love's not simple, it's fragile And you don't even know No, you don't know the half of it So make up your mind Quit wasting your time I'm losing my mind, mind, mind All or nothing, all or nothing
My memory is not like the other one Turn to strike my face Always second place Tell me again, Why is it I Never can do anything right? Complicated theories of life, sarcastically But we both know The way it's gonna go In the same way Maybe I'm not all that you thought And we don't move Like we used to do In the same way Maybe you're not such a hot rod Take back again all that I ever was It was only just a phase I never thought of it that way But what do I know I'm sorry for Not wanting to be your décor Truth is such a violent force, pushing you away
I, I, I, I wanna run the world! I, I, I, I wanna run the I, I, I, I wanna run the world, the world, the world, the world! And I, I, I, I wanna run the world! I, I, I, I wanna run the I, I, I, I wanna run the world, the world, the world, the world! I'm never honest I'm faking all this Just point those fingers 'Cause I could never be hurt I'm not what I say Oh, I am so fake Just an illusion Props to your conclusions And why is it that I believe everything they speak of me? It's hard for me sometimes to see beyond all that they want
Know it, fell in love I wanted, wanted, less I know things, batter up I think I'm fine with all the trade offs, give it up I need my time, I'm turning all my shit upside down One time, one time Before you know it, fall in love I wanted, wanted, less I know things, batter up I think I'm fine with all the trade offs, give it up I need my time, I'm turning all my shit upside down One time, one time Before you know it, bound to fall I'm checking my costar Give me everything I can't hold now If I called you now are you open? To waiting on me I froze time Holding all your wishes I'm falling, I don't know 'bout nothing But it's cold out If you got to thinking, would it act out? I don't know, I don't know, ah I'll leave you waiting All the truth's that's on my 10 rush to my head again like All of your walls come falling down To me, I'll find a way I'll leave your eyes just for a second or a minute Baby just to quit it again When I'll have all the sense to say don't know No I don't, really don't know And can you keep it up? Held to that shit like a promise Don't wanna talk, all my issues are on a need to know and Have you had enough? I'm not afraid of the answer Give me a chance just to figure it out or let it go I've been stuck in silence I never got the vantage from these heights and They turning with a smile now Told me way back when if it feels good Then it feels good Give it up
You live in my dream state Relocate my fantasy I stay in reality You live in my dream state Any time I count sheep That's the only time we make up, make up You exist behind my eyelids, my eyelids Now, I don't wanna wake up 20/20, 20/20 vision Cupid hit me, cupid hit me with precision, eye Wonder if you look both ways when you cross my mind I said, I said I'm sick of, sick of, sick of, sick of chasing You're the one that's always running through my daydreams, I I can only see your face when I close my eyes So... Can I get a kiss? And can you make it last forever? I said, I'm 'bout to go to war (Uh-huh) And I don't know if I'ma see you again Can I get a kiss? (Can I?) And can you make it last forever? (Can you?) I said, I'm 'bout to go to war (I'm 'bout to) And I don't know if I'ma see you again Ugh, switch it up I said, okay, okay, okay, okey-dokey, my infatuation Is translating to another form of what you call it? (Love) Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, I ain't met you, I've been looking Stop the waiting 'fore I stop the chasing, like an alcoholic "You don't understand me"—what the fuck do you mean? It's them rose-tinted cheeks, yeah, it's them dirt-colored eyes Sugar-honey iced tea, bumblebee on the scene Yeah, I'd give up my bakery to have a piece of your pie Ugh!
If I could begin to be Half of what you think of me I could do about anything I could even learn how to love When I see the way you act Wondering when I'm coming back I could do about anything I could even learn how to love Like you I always thought I might be bad Now I'm sure that it's true ‘Cause I think you're so good And I'm nothing like you Look at you go I just adore you I wish that I knew What makes you think I'm so special If I could begin to do Something that does right by you I would do about anything I would even learn how to love When I see the way you look Shaken by how long it took I could do about anything I could even learn how to love like you Love like you Love me, like you
And with a smile like an ocean wave You catapult around the Sun And meet me at the other side To tell me that you found it fun Swimmin' in the UV rays You shouted like the sound of thunder Boomin' through my stupid shades You shook all of the ground undone I slipped into your beauty like a mudslide And on my search, I found nothing but upsides Your arms extend like branches Whenever we touch I feel the bark begin to Soften up at all my sappy punchlines Maybe that's the reason You're my earth You're the planet You're the grass The wind and tides And now that you're gone I feel so out of place And now that you're gone I'm just driftin' through space And now that you're gone I feel so out of place And now that you're gone I'm just driftin' through space And when we split up like Pangea I was hopin' that we could reform A landbridge between our separate pieces of the Earth Before our disconnect began to breed a species That would hurt much more Than carnivores, herbivores, recklessness or urban swarm Maybe I could wash up on a certain shore Smilin' past a long night of drinkin' And the lights above the island Watching lightnin' flash every time You open up your eyelids Gentle smirks exploding like a fire in the sky Until you scared away the forest creatures Sleepin' in the trees They began to huddle next to me Weepin' in the leaves See I watched you change the temperature Increasin' the degrees Until the warmth was just enough To let them nestle into peace I never thought there'd be A problem that we couldn't solve When you control the weather's climate And the sea levels and all But I suppose that when an earthquake Splits the crust above the faults I shouldn't act as if the damage Wouldn't break up those involved
This is a "thank you for everything" A semicolon hovering where something once was menacing A "soon to be continued" that exists after the ending screen The only song I know that I would ever even wish to sing When heat is blistering, you're the ice that's glistening inside my cup of tea, which is also you Interesting Throughout all the seasons in this transition of winter spring You've been here beside me with the sweet nothings you're whispering You're a lovable angelic piece of perfect, and anything I do for you is worth it times a million and a half We can sit and be resilient and laugh In between the subtle compliments and billions of half-kiss half-hug half-cuddle moments we share And I know it's unfair that we can only spend a few days here But I'm yours and I think that it's clear, so forget about goodbye, this is "see you soon", my dear 'Cause I love you and I'd like to spend forever in the subtle warmth inside your arms like fireplace's embers I will try my best to keep you by my side 'til the weather Turns apocalyptic and we end up drifting to the nether But we'd be still be wearing sweaters when we got there Because we're both way too caught up all in our cuteness to care about hot air And even if it burnt me alive, I'd have my crosshairs set up on your heart, making art, 'cause why stop there? I keep on creating for you until my final days Dancing in the living room, and smoochin' while the vinyl plays I've been losing track of the romantic shit I'm tryna say but basically, I love you And that's kinda gay Imma stay by your side when I can And keep your grip on my hand Because we can both hear the compliments coming in from these pals of mine I've been wondering if you would be my valentine?
Where am I? What the fuck is going on? I don't know where I am But I'm so in love with you You're so upset with me But I'm so obsessed with you I'm fucking crazy I don't wanna damage you But don't fucking test me My mental's unsteady Gonna kill myself Yeah just like Rebzyy You're so upset with me But I'm so obsessed with you I'm fucking crazy I don't wanna damage you But don't fucking test me My mental's unsteady Gonna kill myself Yeah just like Rebzyy Fucked up head and BPD Girl I know you wanted me Wanna see me in the dirt Wanna see me in a skirt I wanna be cute like you Let me feel your molecules Fuck me hard inside the church Then I'll show you my cute skirt Girl you make me so warm Without you I'm so bored Your voice is stuck inside my head My blood spilled it's really red Come right here and lick it up Kiss my neck and fuck me up Fuck me till the suns up Fuck me till I throw up
I know what you want, girl Let me be the one to Hold your— Hold your e—ver We-We could toge— I know what you want, girl Let me be the one to Hold your hand forever We'd be good together I'll make you feel special Help you feel less stressful Fix the holes in your heart It's what I wanted from the start I got mental issues Always fuckin' miss you Tons of bloody tissues All of over my room I need to clean them up Baby, I'm fucked up Baby, will you help me? Because I'm gonna help you All I want is you now All I wanna do now Is wait for you to call me Baby, I'm so sorry Do you wanna hurt me? Are you gonna hurt me? Please don't desert me Please don't desert me All I want is you now All I wanna do now Is wait for you to call me Baby, I'm so sorry Do you wanna hurt me? Are you gonna hurt me? Please don't desert me Please don't desert me Please don't desert me I was up early Up all night I was scratchin' off the 30s You make me feel dirty Tell me I'm disgustin' Tell me that you love me But really you mean nothin' I don't wanna talk No, it's not up for discussion You control my life I feel like a fuckin' puppet Keep tellin' me to shut it Okay baby, alright I remember nights We were dancin' in the moonlight I remember hidin' I was shy and I had stage fright I remember cryin' I just want you to be alright Want you to be okay Okay baby, alright Want you to be okay Okay baby, alright
I still need you in my life You are my motivation The one thing that I cherish when Everything else was taken You see right through my smile And realize that I was fake And you dug into my soul But it's time for operation I would dig into my skin Just you pull you out You really left a couple scars On a loser like me I was thinking this was it Turn that S into a V Maybe we can make a change Maybe we can make you see, like I'm a loser baby Nothing's gonna change me I would rather you be lame with me You touch me, my collectibles Your hugs will be my edibles Your kisses get me so oh high Baby, I'm a loser, why would I try? I'm a loser, baby I've been playing games with dungeons I would rather roll her duchess I would never switch the sweetness I just try'na love her all Back it up and grind it all Get high up of all my flaws I'm a loser, tell them all
Sick with myself, but I've got no one else So I give it to myself, it's the only thing that helps It's the same thing, this pain thing that keeps me from sleeping And screaming to God, I must be motherfucking dreaming And I can rest in peace and at least cease to be Cease to see those things in me that make me wanna cease to breathe And cease to need and cease to feed sickness that's in me This is all that I can be, I can't breathe as I bleed ... God, give me a sign or help I won't cry, it'll be fine, I'll take my last breath Push it out my chest till there's nothing left I know that my mind's near the end God, I hurt myself and fell I won't cry, it'll be fine, I'll take my last breath Push it out my chest till there's nothing left ... How could someone say they're helpless and then they act so selfish? You put me through hell with this, so fuck you, let's just end this And what about our friendship? What you did was senseless You thought you found an exit? Like I said, let's end this ... I just wanna say goodbye Disappear with no one knowing I don't wanna live this lie Smiling to the world unknowing I don't want you to try You've done enough to keep me going I'll be fine, I'll be fine I'll be fine for the very last time
Tell me what you want, what you need Tell me what you wanna give How much blood would you bleed? I'ma tell you I'm a misconceiver, I'm a believer Someone better kick my fever Tell me it's a hundred degrees underneath my own flesh Everyone tells me it's a bit of a mess Someone tell the rest I was never at the head I would never get this shit off my chest though I'm forgetful Someone better tell me I was always on the edge Overstay your bearings, I would never underestimate ... Take your eyes off me, you don't want To see me when I'm gone Moral of the story was you're wrong Everything I gave and everything I lost Good things come at a cost (Come on) I left it on your head and when you ever overstated Your thoughts are never everything you wanted when you were I'ma take it in the head with the signs of the disturbed I'ma leave it on the side, you gonna cry When I bet on the set Let me speak on behalf of the dead I'ma leave, I'ma speak Got me sick in the head, come on Come on Oh barely, my bets are off Everything was better off Oh barely, my bets are off Everything was better off
It's been a while since I last cried I drown out the thoughts of suicide With chemicals and lots of pills But I guess its still cheaper than a hospital bill But now I feel so numb and empty I wouldn't care if the world was ending I have goals and pacific coast dreams I also have low self esteem Socrates And the apostles creed And everything else that I've ever believed Is it all a sham is it all a lie? I admit I'm afraid to die Alone Alone I don't want to die alone Alone alone I don't want to die on my own I just wanna tour around the world And matter the most to just one girl But I don't think that I ever will Everything moves fast but I stand still Now I am so numb and empty I wouldn't care if the world was ending I've got problems with no remedies I've also got self destructive tendencies I'm a fucking loser and I dont talk to girls And I've never had a teenage romance unfurl I listen to the beach boys in the darkness of my room And i make my own music in the hopes of getting you With me With me In holy matrimony With me with me I am so lonely
I don't love you anymore And it just dawned on me this morning I don't feel it anymore I hope you don't mind me leaving But Oo baby Won't you stay with me just one more day? Oo baby Please don't cry. Don't cry And don't kiss me goodbye Maybe I'll go back to St. Louis (go back to St. Louis) Maybe I'll go back to school (gonna finally graduate yah-ya-yah) Get a good job like you wanted (Like you wanted) And blow my brains out in my pool (in my pool) But Oo baby Don't call me baby no more Oo baby Don't call me baby no more
Take me uptight Strung up like a kite Dumb, wicked, and white Love me in spite If I betrayed our lonely nights Spent out like a light With no kiss goodnight We never fight, when I'm away Did your mother always seem to hate me? I'm sicker every day and now I'm terrified of talking to my friends only to stay stuck Dreaming of our first born and your hair covered in popcorn You never leave, you never leave, you never leave
Yes, she is the best I've ever had I'll say it to her face and I'll say it to her dad We went to a party At my good friend's house Then I fell asleep inside my car She tapped up on the window, said she'd gone too far She'd met another boy Another pretty boy I said kill me now, I want to die I heard there's a chance at an afterlife I might not get let in But at least I won't be living Here I am, sandwiched between Heaven and Hell—oh what, they don't exist? Oh well, I wouldn't have gotten into the good one And I still won't be living to See her with another man Oh that really, really, really, really wasn't my plan I used to ask life to kill me slowly But now I beg you, just get on with it [Verse 2] Yes, she is the best I've ever had I'll say it to her face and I'll say it to her dad
The night's not over for a while So what's the point of you leaving? A couple more just couldn't hurt It's the same thing every week It's just embarassing And it's hard to ignore the signs When your attention's placed on someone else We'll talk for a while, I'm certain Drowning, but it's not even worth it It's getting late I can't stay I'll see you next weekend Too tired to act like someone else tonight It's nearly three in the morning And don't you ever stop and think That it's all just meaningless I can't breathe in the basement
When I first saw you, I made a mixtape I didn't know you'd do the same damn thing When I said goodbye to you, it went quiet 'Cause I didn't wanna feel any pain The last thing I want is another debutante To take me away from my world (Take me away from my world) And I know that wasn't us, but it still got tough So come on, come on And tell me Why'd you have to have such a damn good taste in music? Yeah, if all my favorite songs make me think of you I'm gonna lose it When we drove up the coast, we had a soundtrack We made it feel like a film on a reel And our story didn't have a happy ending But it still sounded good, despite the way I feel The last thing I want is another broken heart To drive me to the brink of crazy In the end I couldn't take it, 'cause I knew we wouldn't make it ... In the end, we were just a couple kids Who thought and fought our way around each other There's a mark on the town from the times we had around But there's still some space for the rest of our lives
Too many days I've felt they were strange No wonder I feel like it's never gonna change I just walk by, I'm thinking 'bout a lot But you don't, you don't Even wanna know that Today is just another day Make my bed, I'm on my way Checked my texts and now I'm feeling like I'm gonna die I should've took a five to breathe Took some time to brush my teeth Watched a movie, now I'm feeling like I'm gonna cry I left my peace in the sheets I don't know why I'm still here When I should be asleep I wish I was asleep I wish I was asleep I ain't runnin' from my shit, I'm just stressed out I ain't far from the light, doing my best now I'm just really tryna swerve into traffic Feel the best when I'm lying in the street cracks Pretty far from okay, doing pretty bad I'm just talking bout my car, where my keys at? Pulling up left the key's in ignition I just really think I need some attention
I am thinking it's a sign That the freckles in our eyes are mirror images And when we kiss they're perfectly aligned And I have to speculate That God himself did make us into corresponding shapes Like puzzle pieces from the clay And true, it may seem like a stretch But it's thoughts like this that catch my troubled head when you're away When I am missing you to death When you are out there on the road For several weeks of shows and when you scan the radio I hope this song will guide you home They will see us waving from such great heights "Come down now," they'll say But everything looks perfect from far away "Come down now," but we'll stay I tried my best to leave This all on your machine but the persistent beat it Sounded thin upon listenin' And that frankly will not fly You will hear the shrillest highs and lowest lows with the windows down And this is guiding you home
Anxiety, I'm runnin' out of options Cut 'em out my life just like a photo, I just crop 'em If-If they start to bother me, I cut 'em off or stop them Why am I so ignorant? Why am I so toxic? I don't want that many friends in the first place Most people I wouldn't depend on the worst day Circle small because I do not like drama Got a problem? Then go cry to your mama Anti-social, anti-fun 'cause I'm a reject Life's a bitch and I'm a prick, I need to re-check Do my best every day and I get nothing Yeah, I'm selfish, always in this bitch for somethin' I still walk around at night lookin' for a fight Ask me if I wanna fight, I don't know, I might
Oh, necromancer, put a spell on me With kisses so sweet they rot my teeth Oh, necromancer, why are you so far away Another day rolls by without me kissing your face Oh, girl, won't you meet me in the city? The street lights and corner store signs make you look so pretty But when will you just be with me? I'm so infatuated, I'd swim across the sea I guess you're just fading all away And I guess I have nothing much to say And you can call me and tell me if you're okay I just wish I could see you every day
I'm pretty good at feeling sorry for myself Making up fake lives, but nothing, like, tangible Daydreaming while watching the TV Intricate combos by myself to fall asleep But alas, none of them come true No car accidents, plane crashing No six o'clock news Just me and my too-far-away TV Whoa, tragedy's got my heart a-beating Whoa, rethinking all my days Whoa, tragedy's got my heart a-screaming Take them away, oh, just take them away today Wait a minute, 'cause I've been living More like a fucking king without you And I've been spending all your past killings On a bunch of shit that I won't use
Time changed, we're different But my mind still says redundant things, can I not think? Will you love this part of me? My lover is a day I can't forget Furthering my distance from you Realistically, I can't leave now But I'm okay as long as you keep me from going crazy Keep me from going crazy Straight up ahead, you'll find a sign That says you can't get by with a lie But if I stayed away by a thread from the glory path And made my life harder lying 'bout the stupid shit I say Then you wouldn't know a single thing About how I feel about you and all those really dumb things people feel I'll take the bumpy road, it'll probably break my legs As long as I don't show you what's ruining my head Funny thing about you is you read me pretty well But you haven't found me yet at the bottom of the well Annoying you with smoke signals, asking you for help 'Cause your immediate presence lifts me straight away from hell Me and Mr. Heart, we say the cutest things about you How you seem unreal and we'd probably die so quick without you Suffocated from the radiated air around us Full of happiness we don't have, brightness gone So dark without you, girl Family calls me crazy and my friends say I'm degenerate But you tell me I'm so generous and my self-worth isn't hideous This psychedelic canvas of the person I'm becoming Went from horror movie on TV to happy-ending-princess me Processing the information transferred from your mind to me At light speed like the Falcon from the original Star Wars trilogy Feeling like a free ol' me when I was six and no worries Would stop me from reaching the stars A million miles away from me Sick in the head for you and no cure has been discovered Like a plague hitting my body except if I fall, I'm just fallin' for you Conscious beyond knowledge, alterations are acknowledged And the beauty you've inflicted is always in its action Lovely day today, perfect time to open up to you But I know that you're having fun Wouldn't wanna mess this up for you But I'm happy that you're happy, at least I do that much for you Always glad you're with me This emotion will be gone before you know
From the moment I first saw you I knew you would be the one Looking back on those days And what we had I can't seem to figure out Where we went wrong And my heart can't accept the fact That you're really gone And now every girl I see Is just an impression of you And every new love I have Doesn't feel so new (no) Because this one track heart Only knows how to beat for you And this persistent rhythm Is the only thing that gets me through I said this one track heart Only knows how to beat for you Because I had it once now your love is the only thing That's gonna do Pictures of you project in my mind's eye They're all I can see And looking back on better times Of you and me I can't seem to figure out Where we went wrong And my heart can't accept the fact That you're really gone
You always want to watch Somethin' late at night That terrifies you And then you make me stand guard At the bedroom door I wanna know everythin' you do No, I never mind Do it a thousand times Just let me close to you 'Cause in the dead of night With you by my side There's no cold that could cut through Do you miss me too? Wish you were in my room I just can't shake this off, I won't try And will you fly back to me? There's no one we gotta see, no There's no other place we should be There's no other place we should be I talk a lot of shit for someone that can't talk Then you send it back to my face, love You never pull punches and never will stop I hope you never do, babe
I had a chill run down my spine Should've taken my advice Does it look like I'm surprised? A lot of thought can paralyze What's in this part of my skin that hides? Away from the daylight, into the rain I miss what I hate, but she's my soulmate We're making mistakes, I'm taking a break Don't even ask why I wanna know if you think about me half as much as I think of you Can't you tell I'm trying hard not to seem entranced by relationships and girls? I'm making my way by railroads and lakes I miss what I hate, and it's hard to take We're making mistakes, I'm taking a break Don't even ask why
What a sick, sick feeling To let you go, my dear 'Cause I was not prepared to Let you go, let you go I miss the way you sound I miss to be around you Just let me have another chance
Til I finally got a decent job And I got a place I'll never own We'll knock some holes into the walls To make it feel more like a home How could I ever sleep at night? When you left, you left me paralyzed Tryna keep my head above the waves Holding out for brighter better days ... Friday nights Foggy streets and Christmas lights Wake me up on Saturday Grab my hand and float away Into the abyss again And I will always be your friend (I'll be your friend!) So grab my hand Take my hand I can't do this alone
I love the way you make me feel when I'm staring at my screen At four AM, trying not to fall asleep And you hit me up just to see if I'm OK I loved it way too goddamn much when you told me you don't mind When I keep you up sending Mamegoma Lines You know it's shit like that that makes me wanna be alive I wanna say I think it's OK if we just don't both feel the same way But I feel like we're more than just friends 'Cause it took six sad months to realize I didn't miss the cold weather, I just missed you, and I didn't miss the sweater weather, I just missed you ... So I'll call in sick again just to spend the day with you Wanna say I think it's so gay that we really both feel the same way That I feel like we're more than just friends It took too long to realize I didn't miss the cold weather, I just missed you I didn't miss the sweater weather, I just missed you I didn't miss Orange County, I just missed you I didn't miss 69 Tarocco, I just missed you I didn't miss Culver City, I just missed you Or getting drunk outside the Smell, no, I just missed you 'Cause I don't need the cold weather like I need you And I don't need the sweater weather I just need you
Where did you learn what it means to reciprocate? And how much can I be expected to tolerate? So I started to think about the plans I made The debt unpaid And you just can't call A spade a spade I watch the moon Let it run my mood Can't stop thinking of you I watch you (Now I let it go) (And I watch as things play out like) So long nice to know you I'll be Moving on We started off in such a nice place We were talking the same language I o-open and I'm closing You can't stand the thought Of a real beating heart You'd be holding, having trouble O-o-owning and admit that I am hoping I watch the moon Let it run my mood Can't stop thinking of you I watch you (Now I let it go) (And I watch as things play out like) So long nice to know you I'll be Moving on, moving on You Yeah I always know the truth But I can't just say it to you Yeah I know the truth I knew Yeah I always know the truth But I can't just say it to you Yeah I know the truth
This hill I'll die on is about 90 meters of bricks Coloured indigo, and inscribed with my name, and lined with cedar But the words fall flat like Cymbals crashing, like molars gnashing 'Cause like constellations a million years away Every good intention, every good intention Is interpolation, a line we drew in the array Looking for the faces, looking for the shapes in the silence All that's left for me to climb to the heavens is The chasm of the night and a matter of time But I hear the rumble as the tectonic plates start to shake And I feel my blood pounding like the beat of a drum 'Cause like constellations a million years away Every good intention, every good intention Is interpolation, a line we drew in the array Clinging to the faces, clinging to the shapes in the silences imploding in the night Everything is turning, everything is turning And the shapes that you drew may change beneath a different light Everything you thought you knew will fall apart, but you'll be all right
Venom in the vile Enemies closer than you Trick them into buying Snakes slither in the spine, take the fruit Still a dirty city throwing cards (Yeah, yeah) Everything related back to you (Back to you) I have never been the one to talk Cinderella, Cinderella, wear it if it suits Build it just to watch it fall apart Looking for the arrow when you shoot You take yourself seriously, just stop Listen to your heart :3 Mirror, mirror, the reflection of the law I just wanna show you something new (New) Everything is funny when you see it (DVD) DVD, my life is a cartoon
Feeling sick of myself Think I'll try to be someone else Can't be hard to paint a person In my head create a version The parallel Pull my head out the sand Try as hard as I can Guess I must be satisfactory You said you love me exactly the way I am And you know I find it hard to understand Pay a visit to the doctor 'cause I have A sweet tooth for you I'm wide awake The sugar went straight to my brain Feel like a kid, I double tap My chest with my fist I like you Say it back Say it back Never had a cavity Never had nobody as sweet as you Smooth around the edges, good as new Gently insulating every rendez-vous Caught myself blaming planets, like you do I know every line and curve of your tattoos ... Sweet tooth for you My dreamin' space It's filled with scribbles, tore the page Decipher them with colored paint Repair the stitches in my veins Sweet tooth for you My honeydew I'll see you in my garden soon Beneath the skin, it's cardiac A safety pin
I dont even know who the fuck i am anymore I read that text 4am and my phone hit the floor U messaged me recently Saying you like all my music And how you're so proud of me Like “how do you do this?” You never showed an interest before So surely you're not on your bullshit Or atleast so i thought So we called for two hours I showed you all my songs It went good and not sour So i assumed somethings wrong Just tell me what the problem is Tell me all your issues Cause if your saying that its me Im guarenteeing that its just you I was doing fine Before you came into my life Now u fucked it all up With those u up texts at night But ive been here before Now its 4am Im staring at my wall Im just laying in bed Wishing i was dead Cause everything you said Stays inside my head
Life was hell last week Tryna hit me on my cell but I'm not tryna speak yeah I said I don't wanna speak I be thinkin' that a witch put a spell on me yeah But I'm way too geek Early bird gets the worm but I don't got a beak yeah And what you said to me I don't know what you saying but you say it ain't me yeah Come here Lets dance here Don't run away! My fear Is losing in every way And I know you Lets make it true ... Don't wanna throw this away And now you hit on the phone cuz you got something to say Cuz you complainin' bout some shit like everyday Just give it a break Yeah its all a waste And my friends don't really like her Man what a shame
Never had nobody just like this before I wonder if you'll still be with me When im dead on the floor Or when im tired and sore Like in thirty years or more Dont think ill be here to see it So laugh a lil ‘fore im gone Lets think about the good times while they're here and they come Cause ive been fucking up like everything that i seem to touch Feels like im never enough Im running out of luck Cause ive been fucking up like everything that i seem to touch Yea it all turns to gold like im midas Im smiling while crying And i'll say that its fine but i And ill say in my mind that its fine but I want you to talk to me Bout how you feeling recently Cause you been on my mind tonight Atleast a couple hundred thousand times Never really wanna know When the sun comes back Will be another week I know that for a fact Do you notice me? Do you know this me? Our eyes locked Heart rushing Feel like im in love Our lips touching Your blushing I just can't get enough Do you notice me? Do you know this me? I think i really wanna ask But i dont know how I think im moving 2fast Yea without a doubt Do you notice me me? Do you know this me? Yea it all turns to gold like im midas Im smiling while crying And i'll say that its fine but i And ill say in my mind that its fine but i I want you to talk to me Bout how you feeling recently Cause you been on my mind tonight Atleast a couple hundred thousand times
You were running through the busy street with me just last night You'll never know how much you meant to me and that's fine And when I'm by myself I think about you late night And I just sigh Sometimes all I wanna do is stay inside Vampire when my skin sees the daylight She's too tired but she says she's gonna be fine MD** got her spinning on a weeknight Flat tire on E with a break light No clue how I'll do it but I'll be fine Head spinning off MD** while she takes white I'd say something but its really just not my life
While running home I realised it's fine Everything's okay It just takes some time Cause the worlds on fire And we're all going to die But it'll be okay It just takes some time I think I need some space Maybe some peace of mind I write songs in my bedroom And stay inside But I feel okay Yeah I feel just fine While running home I realised it's fine Everything's okay It just takes some time Cause the worlds on fire And we're all going to die But it'll be okay It just takes some time I think I need some space Maybe some peace of mind I write songs in my bedroom And stay inside But I feel okay Yeah I feel just fine
The pressure is on and it's kissing my neck I feel like a loser For the things I said and haven't said But we talked, and now I'm making amends I know that it's not a given But I'm not trying to forget (You, you) Oh, gimme one good reason to hope I should try my best to be whole What was it I needed? Leave me reeling Something stuck in my throat Oh, gimme one good reason to hope I should try my best to be whole What was it I needed? Leave me reeling Something stuck in my throat ... This body's telling me that I'm dying I don't wanna call here so I'm trying now And I'm crawling to the doors but they're closing Suppose if I ran would I stumble? Well, I lied Don't care, leave me to rot Thought it was foresight Just failing once again It's been a long night Not ready for the mirror Least down here no one hears you leaving (You)
You've been my muse for a long time You get me through every dark night I'm always gone, out on the go I'm on the run and you're home alone I'm too consumed with my own life Are we too young for this? Feels like I can't move Sharing my heart It's tearing me apart But I know I'd miss you, baby, if I left right now Doing what I can, tryna be a man And every time I kiss you, baby I can hear the sound of breaking down I've been confused as of late (Yeah) Watching my youth slip away (Yeah) You're like the sun, you wake me up But you drain me out if I get too much I might need you or I'll break ... I don't want to play this part But I do, all for you I don't want to make this hard But I will 'cause I'm still
You read my mind Better to leave it unsaid Why can't I leave it unsaid? You know I talk too much Honey, come put your lips on mine And shut me up We could blame it all on human nature Stay cool, it's just a kiss Oh, why you gotta be so talkative? I talk too much, we talk too much!
The other night I cried while thinking of having sex with you Not out of desire or shame but some subconscious impulse to feel pain I wiped my tears on my face and neck and the backs of my ears And said, "Now it's sweat, now it's sweat, it's sweat now" Just to see you It's such a treasure But when I feel you My flesh yields no pleasure And honey I'm cultured I'm very sex positive So what is this feeling? It ain't so positive I can't tell you if I like it, I like it What happens if I don't like it? I like it I can't tell you if I like it, I like it What happens if I don't like it? It's only OK, so I've been reading all the sex blogs And they all talk about how OK it is to be gay And straight and bisexual and asexual And have sex however you like But I don't care about hundreds of hypothetical people And their hypothetical sex deals I care about me, and my sex deal! What about my problems? Baby, my body Constantly betrays me I try to betray it I only hurt myself Yeah, yeah
My face burned red, then I woke up feeling like shit When I saw my ordinary face I should start lifting weights ... 'Cause I believe That thoughts can change your body It's all on me If thoughts can change your body I believe Thoughts can change my body It dawned on me Your body can change your mind And maybe if I keep my mouth shut God will answer all my prayers Let my secret vision sprawl Declassified and mine to share And then I'd put my arms around you And say, "Thank God that I've found you" I kept my mouth shut And hoped that this would happen to me I see the patterns in things I never knew this was a part of me A wolf sings in the choir I feel the tension I'm afraid it will break I should start lifting weights
As if on cue They lit a firework The sky reeled back And I ran fast to get to you I think you knew Before the war began What loving to run towards something can do to a man Fall over the edge Learn to live while falling Every laugh is a path worth following When you put it into words It's comfortingly bland There's so little left to understand When we're strung up, hanging from the knots we've allowed We call up our angels to cut us down "If you could be proud of anything you've done What would it be?" Then they disappear and we are up in the clouds I feel the tension shock right through my body I am wide awake Shake a laugh from me I thought one day I thought I'd find a hole In my own backyard I'd never seen before Follow it down Underneath that fence Come back up on the other side Live another life Break down the door, it's yours for the taking I held it back until you stopped asking My eyes are blurred but the clock is ticking I'm coming up short in a life worth nothing I feel it break I feel the weight of anger, pain and sorrow Breaking over me The flags are raised We walk with no goodbyes and no tomorrows This is destiny Memories of the best regrets I play my song in every single rest Every note of the symphony Mend the fence with the best of grace It's pleasantries to the bottom of the page I'm sorry
I'm taking back my heart You were digging a hole for it six feet deep (At the state park, at the state park) I didn't want you to hear That shake in my voice My pain is my own And when the cops shook me down I cried walking home I cried walking home You and me are connected now We were in one photograph and we don't even look happy I can't commit to a crime to commit I need to get one done for the biography because When I split the scene Leave the party early What am I leaving behind me? Just a memory Another body
And when the train came it was so big and powerful When it came into the little station I wanted to put my arms around it But the conductor looked at me funny So we had to say goodbye and leave The Monopoly board still in the backseat Took that nightmare left turn to get out of town Ran into the decreasing speed limits again What should I do? (Eat breakfast) What should I do? (Eat lunch) What should I do? (Eat dinner) What should I do? (Go to bed) Where can I go? (Go to the store) Where can I go? (Apply for jobs) Where can I go? (Go to a friend's) Where can I go? (Go to bed) ... I pretended I was drunk when I came out to my friends I never came out to my friends We were all on Skype And I laughed and changed the subject ... I am almost completely soulless I am incapable of being human I am incapable of being inhuman I am living uncontrollably It should be antidepression As a friend of mine suggested Because it's not the sadness that hurts you It's the brain's reaction against it It's not enough to love the unreal I am inseparable from the impossible I want gravity to stop for me My soul yearns for a fugitive from the laws of nature I want a cutscene, I want a cut from your face to my face I want a cut, I want the next related video I don't want to go insane I don't want to have schizophrenia The ocean washed over your grave The ocean washed over your grave ... Last night I dreamed he was trying to kill you I woke up and I was trying to kill you It's been a year since we first met I don't know if we're boyfriends yet Do you have any crimes that We can use to pass the time I am Running out of drugs to try and I We said we hated humans We wanted to be humans ... A book of Aubrey Beardsley art corrupted me in youth And now I'm trapped inside my youth And you're in love with late-stage youth Thank god for the little things and, and Fuck god that they're little things I am
That's not what I meant to say at all I mean, I'm sick of meaning, I just wanna hold you But that's not what I wanted to say at all I mean, I'm sick of meaning, I just wanna hold you "Is it the Chorus yet?" "No, it's just the building of the verse So when the chorus does come it'll be more rewarding." I would speak to you in song But you can't sing (as far as I'm aware) Though everyone can sing (as you are well aware) I keep so quiet it's hard to tell I'm alive ... Those are you got some nice shoulders I'd like to put my hands around them I'd like to put my hands around them I have enough trouble controlling my own limbs Stealing alcohol from our parents and grandparents There's no devil on one shoulder and angel on the other They're just two normal people (These are the people that I get drunk with These are the people that I fell in love with These are the people that I get drunk with These are the people that I fell in love with) But if you keep giving me your empty hands Man, I am tempted to say Let's piss up another rope, boys This one has grown old and bitter Well, so what? So what? We're young We're thin (most of us) We're alive (most of us) Don't you realize our bodies could fall apart at any second? (We won't have a hard time, you can get what you want You can see if you're right, you're gonna get what you want You're a tall glass of water, I haven't bothered you with ice I haven't watched you watch, season 5 of The Wire) I am terrified your body could fall apart at any second (We can go to bed hungry, we can stay up all night We can stay under the covers and play with flashlights I care about the kids, I care about you I might not sing it for me, but I'll sing it for you) You got those are some nice shoulders I'd like to put my hands around them I'd like to put my hands around them (I got news for you, this is how I feel Let's keep up the experience, they're just messing with you We can be two brothers, we can just act nice There's something you'll keep me singing I can't understand) We can get real horny and keep messing around We can keep real quiet, won't be making no sounds I'll try my best not touch your face Next time can we please meet at my place (We can get real messy and keep messing around We can keep real quiet, won't be making no sounds I'll try my best not to touch your face Next time can we please meet at my) Stop And I know that I don't talk a lot But I know that you don't care a lot As long as we move our bodies around a lot We'll forget that we forgot how to talk
And if you wanna ride it out to the end You can tie your thoughts together And if you really wanted to be kind You'd have forgiven them a long ass time ago And if you really wanna know how kind you are Just ask yourself why you're lying in bed alone I know you wish my flesh would yield I love you but I can't stand the touch And of course I'm alright with death But why you talk about it so goddamn much? I will go to heaven You won't go to heaven I will go to heaven I won't see you there If you really wanna know yourself It will come at the price of knowing no one else This guy, he was so high I asked my friend to punch him out Can you kick his ass? Can you kick his ass for me? And if you really wanna make the change Then you would cut yourself off completely But if you just want it to be OK It will never be OK It'll be alright It'll be alright (fuck!) It'll be alright (fuck!) It'll be alright (fuck you!) ... Now you gotta change addresses again If they knew where the fire was they'd put it out Someone's knocking on your door Fire turned towards me with an open mouth And if you don't come home tonight You will never call it home again And if you need some peace and quiet There is room for all in heaven
Most people are jokes but you're so real Most of the time that I use the word "you" Well you know that I'm mostly singing about you You galvanistic young boy You galvanistic young man You galvanistic young inhuman You understand You'll get what you want and you'll get what you deserve You'll get what you want and you'll get what you deserve
I got so fucking romantic I apologize Lemme light your cigarette Come visit Kansas for a week of debauchery Songs and high fives and weird sex ... I got so fucking romantic I apologize Lemme smoke your weed, no wait Healthy minds make sexy bodies Let us touch so much of ourselves together ... Give me one little chance (chance) I can make you a man (man) I will be your rock, Dog (woof woof) When you're rolling your eyes ... I am love I would sleep naked Next to you naked I am love
In the backseat of my heart My love tells me I'm a mess I couldn't get the car to start I left my keys somewhere in the mess It comes and goes in plateaus One month later, I'm a fucking pro My parents would be proud Or fall asleep on the floor Forget what happened in the morning There are notes in your handwriting But you can't make it out We are not a proud race It's not a race at all We're just trying I'm only trying to get home Drunk drivers, drunk drivers This is not a good thing I don't mean to rationalize Or try and explain it away It's not okay Drunk drivers, drunk drivers It's too late to articulate it That empty feeling You share the same fate as the people you hate You build yourself up against others' feelings And it left you feeling empty as a car coasting downhill I have become such a negative person It was all just an act It was all so easily stripped away But if we learned how to live like this Maybe we can learn how to start again Like a child who's never done wrong Who hasn't taken that first step ... Here's that voice in your head Giving you shit again But you know he loves you And he doesn't mean to cause you pain Please listen to him It's not too late Turn off the engine Get out of the car And start to walk
Take your hands off your neck and hold On to the ghost of my body You know that good lives make bad stories You can text me When punching mattresses gets old Don't think it'll always be this way Not comforted by anything I say We were wrecks before we crashed into each other Such a good idea If it turns you on We have breakdowns (Oh, oh, oh) And sometimes we don't have breakdowns (No, no, no) I want to hear you going psycho If you're going psycho I wanna hear Every conversation just ends with you screaming Not even words, just ah-ah-ah-ah-ahh Don't worry, you and me won't be alone no more Don't worry, you and me won't be alone no more
One thing I came out here for one thing And that little bitty one thing Was to forget about you But I guess I've learned something That there's never really one thing 'Cause pretty quickly one thing Evolves into two, or three, or more ... After tonight, you'll never hear from me again. If that's what you want. Everything we need to fix our marriage is inside this envelope. I'm asking for one chance. We'll do this one thing It is the first thing We're doing together Since You left without saying a word I found out you are not who I thought you were
All I told is what's eventual I said, "Don't know if I can continue to keep on" With everything I'm given, what do I do wrong? ... I said "Baby, I'm a wreck but I know you know" Nothing but another with a nasty tone Don't turn and face the crowd just yet You'll see I'm just like all the rest Honestly, don't you get stuck with me ... I'm missing little pieces in my mind We're kissing with your fingerprint on mine But I don't think that we should make this pact 'Cause I know me, I'll wanna take it back Soon as it starts to hurt Here come the waterworks I don't know what you heard, but I'm not that strong Take the needle back, stick the Band-Aid on Did you want to stay overnight? I won't talk Baby, don't you mind, don't you start Don't look so surprised, hardly dark And I'm turning off the lights
And did I ever get to tell you what you meant to me? And did you know that you were always like a fantasy? And are you off to see the places that were in your dreams? Yeah, will you ever find yourself inside a fantasy? And did you ever find the love in you you found in me? And will I ever get the chance to be your fantasy? And will I see you down the road wherever that may be? Well, if I do I'll tell you that you were my fantasy I suppose it's nice to know That there's so much left to go But as seasons start to change My feelings may start to fade But I'll never forget Oh the ease you put me in Oh the sun will start to set As the leaves rise in the wind And amidst a sea of red I'll think of the words you said Oh and it's hardest in the snow Wondering which way to go Though the spring will come with time I have lost this love of mine If it all just ends today I think I will be okay But I'll always wonder if This is how it should've been I'll never know I'll never know anything But wherever You are now I'll carry on
I just need someone in my life to give it structure To handle all the selfish ways I'd spend my time without her You're everything I want, but I can't deal with all your lovers You're saying I'm the one, but it's your actions that speak louder Giving me love when you are down and need another I've got to get away and let you go, I've got to get over ... I'm gonna pack my things and leave you behind This feeling's old and I know that I've made up my mind I hope you feel what I felt when you shattered my soul 'Cause you were cruel and I'm a fool So please let me go But I love you so (Please let me go) I love you so (Please let me go) I love you so (Please let me go) I love you so
I can't focus on what needs to get done I'm on notice hoping that you don't run, ah You think I'm tepid but I'm misdiagnosed 'Cause I'm a stalker, I seen all of your posts, ah-ah And I'm just tryna play it cool now But that's not what I wanna do now And I'm not tryna be with you now, you now You make it difficult to not overthink And when I'm with you I turn all shades of pink, ah I wanna touch you but don't wanna be weird It's such a rush, I'm thinking wish you were here, ah-ah But I could be your crush, like, throw you for a rush, like Hopin' you'd text me so I could tell you I been thinking 'bout your touch like Touch, touch, touch, touch, touch I could be your crush, crush, crush, crush, crush I got a fascination with your presentation Makin' me feel like you're on my island You're my permanent vacation Touch, touch, touch, touch, touch I could be your crush, crush, crush, crush, crush Sorry I fill my calendar with stuff I can do Maybe if I'm busy it could keep me from you And I'm pretendin' you ain't been on my mind But I took an interest in the things that you like
I don't really give a damn about the way you touch me when we're alone You can hold my hand if no one's home Do you like it when I'm away? If I went and hurt my body, baby, would you love me the same? I can feel all my bones coming back and I'm craving motion ... All my emotions feel like explosions when you are around And I've found a way to kill the sound, oh Oh, baby, I am a wreck when I'm without you I need you here to stay I broke all my bones that day I found you Crying at the lake Was it something I said to make you feel like you're a burden? Oh, and if I could take it all back I swear that I would pull you from the tide
Watch the sun rise along the coast As we're both getting old I can't describe what I'm feeling And all I know is we're going home So please don't let me go Don't let me go And if it's right, I don't care how long it takes As long as I'm with you I've got a smile on my face Save your tears, it'll be okay All I know is you're here with me Watch the sun rise as we're getting old, oh oh I can't describe oh, oh I wish I could live through every memory again Just one more time before we float off in the wind And all the time we spent Waiting for the light to take us in Have been the greatest moments of my life
You and me always forever We could stay alone together You and me always forever Say you'll stay, never be severed You know you've got me in your pocket You don't just have to wait around You know I keep you in my locket Just come here and we can settle down You and me always forever We can stay alone together Heard you say things could be better Darling, don't get away right now Oh, darling, it's alarming to think of us apart
Baby it's not what it seems I've seen you in my dreams ... Baby you are the reason I'm catchin' all these feelings I want to let you know But the words won't seem to go Baby you are the reason I'm keepin' myself clean I want to let you know This heart has found a home
Why are these the things that I'm feeling? There's so much time For me to speak up, but I keep quiet I'll complicate the most of the mantra The power's out and I can't turn the fan on So can I call you tonight? I'm trying to make up my mind Just how I feel Could you tell me what's real? I hear your voice on the phone Now I'm no longer alone Just how I feel Could you tell me what's real anymore? 'Cause I wouldn't know ... I always try my best to listen Picking up things that I can fidget Circle speed Pacing around, watching my feet Batteries drain, I get the memo I think that I might have to let you go
I miss my cocoa butter kisses, hope you smile when you listen Ain't no competition, just competin' for attention And you like, "I'm not on no games" Well, baby, I been peepin', and you ain't been the same Like, who been on your mind? Who got your time? Who you been vibin' with and why I can't make you mine? ... And if we paint a perfect picture, we can make it last forever And you the only one I want to wear my orange sweater I told you I am down for the worse or the better But I keep sticking to you 'cause them four stupid letters You got me singing love songs (Love songs, love songs) You got me singing love songs Oh, this the type of song you tip on four fours and pour up song Yeah, that make you fall in love song That "Hey, bighead, what you on?" Make you hit me up song Double cupped, but bae, I'm leaning on you You been playing games, I'm tryna make you my boo I don't duck no action, you bust one and I bust two Pills of satisfaction, I take the red, you pop the blue
I don't want to go to school tomorrow I can't study Thinking about you and you know I always do I don't want to go to sleep tonight when I can stay up Thinking about you and you know I always do Marlboro Nights (Just say the word, just say the word)
Hey, Hey, Hey, lover You don't have to be a star Hey, hey, hey, lover I love you just the way you are For love is just the same Without fortune or fame Just give me True love and understanding Hey, hey, hey, lover You don't have to be a queen Hey, hey, hey, lover You don't have to have a thing For I'll be satisfied Long as you are my bride ... No, you shouldn't have to worry Love's no problem in my hands Just know I really, really, love you
Hope you don't regret it I pushed a lot back but I can't forget it We never got the credit Nobody seemed to hear us but we said it Neither of us planned it And for a long time I took it all for granted I really thought we had it But at the time it was more than I could manage, so If we can leave it all behind us And meet in between It would get me so High all the time, high all the time I wanna be high all the time Would you come with me? Wish I didn't doubt it I wish I never ever told you all about it But I just had to let you know I never meant to hurt you, though I had all my motives I didn't know they wouldn't mix with your emotions I just had to reach my goals Never knew I'd meet you though, so If we can agree to disagree And keep on reaching It would get you so ... We should stick together You're my best friend, I'll love you forever (Would you come with me?) (It would get you so) We could be the greatest, it doesn't matter if we're never rich or famous (Would you come with me?) (It would get you so) ... If you can just let me know if it's okay To call you when I'm lonely
Silently I wait for love But honestly, it'll never come In my room is where I'll stay, oh I won't go, oh, I won't run (I won't run) No one cares about this song Sincere my words yet I'm still wrong, oh Honey, I hope I say this right I love you, you should stay tonight My desires I must confess I want you more when you want me less, oh You just want one night and you'll go, oh Girl please love me, I'm not a show Being left alone is my greatest fear Now it's in my face so clear, oh I need someone close to hold Please love me, please don't go Please don't go Away from me Honey, I might seem deranged I can't promise that I will change I hope you see that I'm worthy enough to Hold your hand and be your beloved who cares Is always there, by your side, at all times
When you're away I'll be losing sleep ... Just give me your love Give me your release I need your healing with your touch I can take it, I can all take the pain It's all for you, for you, for you It's always been for you ... You are quiet In a world so full of noise I'll be the shoulder you cry on I'll always hear your voice Full of desire You love, you laugh, you dream I'll give you healing with my touch I can take it, I can take all your pain ... Our love will never fade You're the star in an early dawn Forever in the twilight Like a diamond in the calm You're the moon On a cold grey sea You light the way Always guiding me
Reach for my hand I'll soar away Into the dawn Oh, I wish I could stay Here in cherished halls In peaceful days I fear the edge of dawn Knowing time betrays ... Reach for my hand I'll soar away Into the dawn Oh, I wish I could stay Here in cherished halls In peaceful days I fear the edge of dawn Knowing time betrays ... Don't ever take Back your kind hand Lest precious love Slip away like time's sand
You are the only thing that can ease my mind on days like these You are the only one that take my mind somewhere else They say patience is a virtue but I don't want to hurt you I'm Impatiently waiting just to break through the surface Cuz you got soft skin but your heart so hard And when you smile like that it makes me fall so hard Guitar loops and star groups symbols in the sky Connect all the dots it'll lead you back to mine I'm only interested in one of a kind and baby ya fine You can see that I'm trying to get some time with you ... Seems i started just a sec ago and now i gotta fly In a world full of lies i thought it best that I just kept to myself That is until i met you you weren't like anyone else And now the city has color Am I dreaming Fall fades away with the leaves and Winters creeping slow But i don't mind i keep you close
I stop but then I hesitate What's the point of leaving if we can't even wait? She's thinking of what she could say Fifteen days that I spent Finding out what you meant Now we're dancing again Keeping time, she keeps my eyes awake What else is there to say? (I knew that I wouldn't change) I thought that this was something different than before Now we're changing shape inside your brain and starting to reform, oh lord Now I'm speaking words without thinking before (I knew that I wouldn't change) I wanted to do what I said that I'd do Now I'm making things up and not thinking it through, so true It was so legit but it's nothing new (I knew that I wouldn't change)
My thoughts mixed up You don't seem to bother Are you blind or just tired Of everything that has been going on Lately I'm sorry Maybe I shouldn't try To be the guy who solves your problems Right place, wrong time Is what she said to me These days gone to waste Is what we're left with My thoughts mix up You never seem to bother Are you blind or just tired Of everything that has been going on Lately you say you're not ready But will you ever be ready? Ready, are you ready? Will you ever be ready?
We know where the music's playing, let's go out and feel the night Because I'm still in love with you I want to see you dance again Because I'm still in love with you On this harvest moon When we were strangers, I watched you from afar When we were lovers, I loved you with all my heart But now it's getting late and the moon is climbing high I want to celebrate, see it shining in your eye
This is gonna sound like a bad joke But Momma, I fell in love again It's safe to say I have a new girlfriend And I know it sounds so old But Cupid got me in a chokehold And I'm afraid I might give in Towel's on the mat, my white flag is wavin' I mean, she even cooks me pancakes And Alka-Seltzer when my tummy aches If that ain't love then I don't know what love is We even got a secret handshake And she loves the music that my band makes I know I'm young, but if I had to choose her or the sun I'd be one nocturnal son of a gun It's been a while since we talked last And I'm tryin' hard not to talk fast But Dad, I'm finally thinkin' I may have found the one Type of girl that'll make you way proud of your son And I know you heard the last song About the girls that didn't last long But I promise this is on a whole new plane I can tell by the way she says my name I love it when she calls my phone She's even got her very own ringtone If that ain't love then I don't know what love is It's gonna be a long drive home But I know as soon as I arrive home And I open the door, take off my coat, and throw my bag on the floor She'll be back into my arms once more for sure She's got a smile that'll make the most senile Annoying old man bite his tongue (I'm not done) She's got eyes comparable to sunrise And it doesn't stop there (Man, I swear) She's got porcelain skin, of course she's a ten Now she's even got her own song (But movin' on) She's got the cutest laugh I ever heard And we can be on the phone for three hours (Not sayin' one word) And I would still cherish every moment And when I start to build my future, she's the main component Call it dumb, call it luck, call it love Or whatever you call it, but Everywhere I go I keep her picture in my wallet
I woke up this morning Feeling lonely You were gone and my cell phone too But what is this feeling? Empty inside my head Feels like a heart attack Ohh ohh, Wooh! I miss you so bad The thought of you makes me sad I'm going mad (No, I'm not) Ohh ohh! Can't help it, I just miss you How did I lose you now again? Can't help it, I just miss you Why did I lose you now again?
But remember that I love you And you know I always will And remember that I'll dream about you, baby (I'll dream about you, baby) I thought I was ready Obviously I wasn't My body's burning And I've got to get inside 'Cause I'm feeling kinda dizzy
I miss the way you talk me down so calmly We cross the street before the park gets lonely Hey, can you just come over with me? ... Up 'til three in the morning What did I stay here for? What did I stay here for? 'Cause your daydreams, heartbreaks Make me feel like I'm a mistake Daydreams, heartbreaks Make me feel like I'm a mistake ... I miss the way you make your morning coffee The sun relaxes on the bed so softly Hey, can you just lay down with me? Helpless and tired is how we should be
Out of luck and out of time To say I love the things you like If everything's distant What am I missing? I don't know 'Cause I wanna be more than just good friends And I wanna play more than just defense And I don't wanna feel like a loser And I wanna take a ride in your brand new Benz And I wanna act tough and to want you less And I don't wanna feel like a loser I wanna wake up on the right side of your bed No more daydreams No more pretending it's true, it's true Not like it matters but I'm feeling better 'cause You got my number on Speed dial number one All accounts Signed in, signed out But you got my number on Speed dial number one
Caught me sleeping off a headache Breathing at a fast rate Three days waiting for a replay I put it off 'cause I don't wanna forget Three dots and leave it on read Erase the file in my head
Your hands around his collar An unworthy kiss and I wasn't bothered Pretend I wanted a reason To run out of reasons to stay Well, I lie and recover My bed is a hospital She said, "Are you okay?" Well, I lie and recover My bed is a hospital Take all of my time Take me for granted Cut me up in a million pieces On another planet Take all of my time Take me for granted Cut me up in a million pieces On another planet with you And I try to get your attention But it's deeply useless and frequently painful
Can we keep time alive Long enough to fake a smile? Never knowing all the lies that have been growing in our love Never knowing all the lies that have been growing in our love Empty spaces our aging faces have turned to (Oh, we don't talk about it) Trading places with whatever makes us feel new (Oh, we don't talk about it) Taking turns putting cigarette burns in our jeans below the knee You waste my life ... Empty spaces our aging faces have turned to (Oh, we don't talk about it) Trading places with whatever makes us feel new (Oh god, don't talk about it) I can see you off I can make you cry for me I can see you off I can make you cry for me I can see you off I can make you cry for me
Tonight, I've fallen victim In my head, to what could've been Thinking too much and too often About you, again If I knocked would you let me in I'm a fool, again If I knocked would you let me in What I would do if I was with you In the other room Dreaming of you, is all I can do From the other room Be still, my beating heart Won't you beat for another? You're a work of art I wanna swim in your colors again If I knocked would you let me in? I'm a fool again If I knocked would you let me in?
Am I alone in here? I think it's time I made my peace Give up every drop of blood to feel you shake They know what we've been hiding They know what we've been hiding Oh, you wanna tease me here on the bathroom floor You wanna squeeze me like I was sweet sugar So sink into the floor with me, baby Stir crazy in a two-star town If you're swimming in the sun, won't you take me? Won't you hold me close? ... I should've kissed that girl in the parking lot I never told her what I wanted to say I could've cracked my head in a parking lot You never know Am I alone in here? I really think I'm losing touch Separation is our only friend Don't get attached, 'cause soon enough, we're dead ... When you sleep, do you dream of me?
Every which way, don't you ever wonder how Taking its place, I'll let you know if it turns out Oh, what could it be, who did you wrong, what did you need? What did you see, what did you feel, what did you believe? Every which way, I'll let you know if it turns out Darling, what are you on about? You fancy, you're a rebel Let me hear you shout A lonely ride, divided lines Late enough to drive Next to me an empty seat Every second seems to be the last one
I was born, as I've been informed, on a Thursday night In the wake of a moon line opposite Jupiter Now nearly seven hours since we shared that cigarette I ask you where you've been, where you've been Sentiments Long goodbyes Laced with bad advice You kick and you scream and you make it so hard to leave ... Blessed with a heart so nice You'd break it twice You kick and you scream and you make it so hard to leave ... And it's hard to see when you see straight through me
You trade a pocket for a pocket knife You forget me in your new disguise You smile, I'm glad to be here, yeah Stay awake Don't be afraid of everything Stay awake Don't be afraid of everything A rose by porch light Every day you're one day older But you say it's alright Would you say you're getting closer To waking up happy Now you're alone and not with me And I guess that I cannot do right And I think it's all the pain that I can stand tonight, yeah Kick, scratch, and claw Don't seem so empty While your seventh sister weaves away
You know that I hate your friends They make you insecure Like the time that you were locked out of your house And no one showed to let you in To let you know you mean something to them You mean something to them You mean something to them And I watch from afar You're the knife in my side But I don't mind, I kinda like it Desperate, uptight And lately unkind (Feeling) Desperate, (I am) desperate For taking the longest way to get out of my mind I know that you hate my friends They make you so insecure, I'm sure ... (Well, well, well, well) Somehow, it starts With "hi" and ends with "I'm sorry this didn't go as I planned"
Disappointment always on my shoulders I heard that you're honest And I wish I was better Because you're all that I want And every word that you mock Sounds so pretty to me You should die with me And we can stay ... I tried to balance I couldn't stand to apologize For bleeding in your bedroom closet And I won't be idle, somewhat shaky When I hear your voice cut through rope ... Hello? I think I'm in love I'm fairly certain I'm all of the above Yeah, I'm complex I'm not sure if I'm being honest Well, you never called back I don't remember that I cried, I cried, I cried When you never called back I don't remember that I cried, I cried, I cried
I think of you and knock my head on the door Every second I'm without you is another I endure With every dying breath let the blood fill my chest I ask you to hold my hand As we fall asleep and I forget your face Hope there's something after this, something to replace Every memory of us 'Cause it hurts to think about And I don't want your pain I don't want your pain I fell out of love
I currently am without you And I couldn't leave if I had to And I just remembered it was Halloween So I guess I'm going as a guy who's paying parking tickets On his laptop on the living room floor In the same clothes I wore yesterday I don't think that I'm gonna change How do we know how late Is too late to still be awake? Don't you know I hate it? You underestimated ordinary words I hear the rain on my skylight From my bed where I spend most of my time And I just remembered it was Halloween So I guess I'm going as a guy who knows just what you'll say You don't think that I'm gonna change
Dear, I fear we're facing a problem You love me no longer, I know and Maybe there is nothing that I can do To make you do Mama tells me I shouldn't bother That I ought just to stick to another man A man that surely deserves me But I think you do So I cry, and I pray, and I beg Love me, love me Say that you love me Fool me, fool me Go on and fool me Love me, love me Pretend that you love me Leave me, leave me Just say that you need me So I cry and I beg for you to Love me, love me Say that you love me Leave me, leave me Just say that you need me I can't care about anything but you Lately I have desperately pondered Spent my nights awake and I wonder What I could have done in another way To make you stay Reason will not lead to solution I will end up lost in confusion I don't care if you really care As long as you don't go
How I always memorize every single misery And I seem to glorify everything inside of me And the hero never dies If the lover hides between the sheets There's no escape 'cause you can't sleep And then you'll see you're just like me That's what you called waste of time I'll be waiting down the line That's what you called waste of time Waiting for your valentine That's what you called waste of time I know where your hero hides That's why you don't sleep tonight That's what I call, that's what you call That's what I call life With a hero in the past, you hang on to history Such a loss will always last and there's no recovery
Oh, I think you're standing on my left foot It's hurting but that's okay 'Cause I'm in your way You'll break that foot that you're standing on I'll walk with the other one Do what you want to do what you want to Be what you want to be what you want to Go on and step on me You're free to have everything you can see All that you want from me Free to be all that you want to be Do what you want with me Oh, I think you're spinning inside my head I think of you all the day 'Cause you're in my way Oh, I think you're holding the heart of mine Squeeze it apart, that's fine
Hungry for the meeting The dinner we'll be eating Wine that we'll be drinking And kinky thoughts I'm thinking All because of you And now I've found a partner No one can be happier than I am And now I've found a new friend No one can be happier than me
I'm so mature, I'm so mature I'm so mature, I got me a therapist to tell me there's other men I don't want none, I just want you If I can't have you, no one will, I (I might) I might kill my ex, not the best idea His new girlfriend's next, how'd I get here? I might kill my ex, I still love him, though Rather be in jail than alone
I'll touch that fire for you I do that three, four times again, I testify for you I told that lie, I'd kill that bitch I do what all of them around you scared to do, I'm not Long as you juggin' out here for me, I got it Mobbin', schemin', lootin', hide your bodies Long as you dreamin' 'bout me, ain't no problem I don't got nobody, just with you right now Tell the truth, I look better under you I can't lose when I'm with you How can I snooze and miss the moment? You just too important Nobody do body like you do I can't lose when I'm with you I can't just snooze and miss the moment You just too important Nobody do body like you do, you do In a droptop ride with you, I feel like Scarface (Scarface) Like that white bitch with the bob, I'll be your main one (Your main one) Let's take this argument back up to my place (My place) Sex remind you I'm nonviolent, I'm your day one (Day one) We ain't have shit yet, it was magic, yeah Smash and grab shit, yeah Nasty habits take a hold when you not here Ain't a home when you not here Hard to grow when you not here, I'm sayin'
I'm color-coding my moods You're yellow, I'm natural blue Let's get together and be green like my insides At least I'll match your eyes Jealous and hypnotized Let's match our faces and be equally in love Hey, tell me what you want me to say You know I'm stupid for you Hey, can you come and come out and play? You know I'm stupid for you Let's trash our whole afternoon Reciting recycled news Until we melt and go back to your hotel room I'll be your new favorite tune I'll be your black cloud by June But only when you miss the rain like I miss you Just double dare me And I promise now that I'll stay It's not like you're married but I still got carried away Hey, tell me what you want me to say You know I'm stupid for you Hey, can you come and come out and play? You know I'm stupid for you
Dreamin' of you when I'm alone Baby don't trip, I'm comin' home Kick it with me I don't care if the sun is gone Baby don't cry when I am gone Promise you are everything I want This is for you, baby listen, it's your song Oye cariño, sólo pienso en ti When I wake up in the morning until I go back to sleep How I wish you were mine I think of you all the time I always feel like I'm flying Baby, you make me feel fine Lost in the words that you say to me Y pasando tiempo juntos is the ultimate dream I'm on top of the world Baby girl, can't you see? I found my perfect girl I wanna make you my queen Time and time again I can be feeling real sad 'Cause mi sueño no se ha hecho una realidad Pero el tiempo dirá, el tiempo dirá If we go spend our lives together lo que el mundo gira I promise I don't want nobody else to be around me but you And nobody's touch and nobody's lips can make me feel like yours do Our hands interlock, nuestros labios se conocen Nuestra noche es corta pero hermosa we'll be okay Sin ti mis días son largos y se sienten tan amargos Me ahogo en un lago de mis lágrimas que hago Can't look forward to my future if it ain't including you Promise that I'm gonna love you It's about that time you knew I swear I don't see nothing better than to lay here with you And I hope you know I miss you From my head I can't dismiss you Eres lo que yo anhelaba en esta vida que me falta Lo que siento is surreal I can't lie to you for real Sabes bien que te quiero And if you're down to spend your summer with me just let me know You know you're my sueño You came to life and now I feel alright
You could have anyone you want Why would you want to be with me? I'm nothing special You could have anyone you want Why would you want to be with me? You know, I'm nothing special Be with whoever you want I don't care, I don't care I don't wanna know Don't tell me about your problems If you're not trying to solve them Don't ask me for my help Fix it yourself Do whatever you want I don't care, I don't care Don't even tell me I don't really wanna know Don't ask me how's my day's been I just wanna be alone Stop talking about your past I don't wanna hear it Just leave me alone Just go I only care about myself 'Cause everyone is trying to hurt me
I can be your home Only for the night if you want So you don't have to be alone And if your day was long I'll be there to ask you "What went wrong, my dear?"
Cry if you wanna cry There's no one stop than you But I'm leaving my tears behind I believe in everything And I don't know where to stop. I'm not sure How to slow down Fly if you wanna fly There's no one holdin' you This is the first time and it's new I believe in everything And I don't know where to start. I'm not sure How to slow down... but it's nice! If summer will end We will both die Someday someday someday someday. If summer will end We will both die Someday someday someday someday Someday someday someday.
Smoking cigarettes on the roof You look so pretty and I love this view Don't bother looking down We're not going that way At least I know, I am here to stay We fell in love in October That's why, I love fall Looking at the stars Admiring from afar (My girl, my girl, my girl) You will be my girl My girl, my girl, my girl You will be my world My world, my world, my world
I don't know what's wrong with me Nothing I do can make them see That although I'm weirdly self-aware That I'm the person who really cares But you and me, we talked for hours Walked around and got you flowers Free spirit and an artist too I've been looking for a girl like you Not sure if we could call it a date But I love your stories and how we relate Just when I thought it was going swell Said you're not looking for romance, but, hell If you were, you say it would be with me Just not the time for you to start anything I guess I'll take the consolation prize But what the fuck was that look in your eyes? ... I'm a mess I don't know how to impress anyone I don't want us to just be friends I really believed you were into me I guess I'm a fool, you're so tricky I really believed you were into me I guess you fooled everyone
No intervention couldn't keep us together And you was spending way too many months trying to save it, but I know you know better 'Cause I don't want to waste your time, but you won't find out 'Til I'm halfway gone and a plane ride down Well, I love you now just like how I loved you then But I think that I know better, I don't think we should be friends at all And now you're up in arms and darling, I'm so terrified I cross my heart and hope to die, your needles in my eyes But really, am I wrong? Addicted to the thought of you, seeing that I was off, it really sobered me up You're in love, but I'm so jaded You're in love, but I'm not vacant I feel love and I can't take too much Hope that one day you're sick at the thought of me 'Cause I think I got a problem with honesty Like when it's not with myself, I can't get over it But you're so understanding so you'll probably be fine So I don't got nothing to worry about, I'm fine Except I'm out of my mind Out of my mind ... No strings in my back, God save me Yeah, this my fucking confession I felt like shit for many months, but that's the worst of regression And I feel the same, huh? I'm sure you getting the message Just trying to make some number ones and keep some seats on they edges This ain't the best that you gon' get from me I just hit up Kirin 'cause I know he got the works for me Won't let this be a first for me
To this day, can't believe that you lied to me And my enemies, they became a fan of me I remember the days when you would talk to me I think a lot, and afraid that you 'gon waste my time I have a feeling that you hate me, can you give me a sign? This shit getting to my head, but I'll be fine Wanna go back to how it used to be And I'm glad we don't talk no more I been on my own shit, hope the best for you ... I don't need you I think my life would be better if I didn't meet you Don't wanna see you, wish I never met you From now on, imma act like I don't know you
I'll wait, I'll wait, I'll wait, I'll wait I'll wait, I'll wait, I'll wait for you So many fucking things that I wanna say to you I know it's getting hard, but we're gonna make it through And I'll fight, I'll fight, I'll fight, I'll fight I'll fight, I'll fight a thousand fights I know this shit went left like a thousand times But I'm still taking my time, I'ma make things right ... Oh, she so cynical, make me wanna throw subliminals Swear she's different though, something 'bout her is so original My friends love the lit songs, it's too bad that I'm a sad guy Got me pouring up these fat lines, tryna pass time Sometimes kinda wanna flatline, that's a bad sign Hope that don't make me a bad guy, I'm just a sad guy Hope you kick him to the curb 'cause he don't deserve you, oh I know what you're worth, so I'd never hurt you, oh In love with this girl, woah, might make her my world, woah I still can't believe that I'm so in love with this girl, woah
You are my church, you are my place of worship I heard you're the plug, can I be the circuit? When I got court, I hope that you're the verdict When you're around, my insides turn inverted My blood start to rush when I see you, doorman I know you're nearby and I know your purpose Take one look at you You're heaven's incarnate What is this spell, baby? Please show some mercy Melting like an ice cream when you smile Melting, you're a daydream Stay a while I pray that I can learn to be funny I'm watching every stand-up comedy Just hoping that it will rub off on me So you'll smile at everything I say You got some soft lips and some pearly whites (pearly whites) I wanna touch them in the dead of night (dead of night) Your smile ignites just like a candlelight (candlelight) Then somehow I know everything's alright
Maybe I'm just trying way too hard to keep you You're an angel and I'm blessed So I am trying to do my best Want you to know how very nice it was to meet you So much time I spend to find something that I could call mine Something real, out of all these phony people And I know our past is tainted It is a shame, now baby, ain't it? But I'm willing, if you're willing I'll be see through Can you take this chance on me? (You won't regret it, c'mon and get it) Love is like the lottery (Yeah, we had issues, can we dismiss those?) Can you take this chance on me? (You won't regret it, c'mon and get it) You're the only one I see Yeah, we had issues Can we dismiss those? If to you I am indebted, don't expect you to forget it But it's only gonna stop us if we let it Yeah, it hit me like a gunshot And from then 'til my burial plot I'mma roll these dice until I hit the jackpot Baby, I know I learned my lesson Love was never my profession I'm just learning as we're growing and progressing No, I never meant to hurt you It's myself, I didn't virtue Now my mind is ready to give our love nurture
I said I loved you to death So I must be dead It makes me sick you know my skin My sins are all built in You know, so I must be dead It makes me sick you know my skin My freckles and my hands, you know I'd never seen a face with your type of shine You moved in behind my eyes and built yourself a shrine But then you ran away And you left the picture frames Now I don't see my face the same Do you see You're the reason I can't sleep? Lose it where your head should be In the dark between my sheets
I used to want to save you, now I don't I used to need your voice and now I need to sleep alone You were supposed to be the first sigh Worth all of the long nights Turning on your high beams Dying in the mood light I think I talk too much I try to walk it off But now you got your gloves And now you box me out I'm out the ring But the only ring I want Is the ring around your finger But your middle one's up I've had enough, I try to brush it off 'Cause you're my confidante So let's talk, share secrets I've got some dirty laundry, can you keep it? I never promised you your dream boy I'm better as your chew toy Love, love, love The heart I gave, it was a decoy I'm just here to destroy Love, love, love (I never promised you your dream boy) You're not worth my color You're not worth another Headache, you're dead weight You're gonna be just like your mother I tried to make life a movie Yeah, here, I got you a preview I had 101 wishes And lost them all on you
I'd love to be in love with you enough to write a love song, mmh I need to feel needed and I need it more than I let on I'll be home just thinking about it, maybe call like I used to But I'll just stay alone because alone is safer than with you I like you inconveniently You're squeezing out my dopamine Yeah, you like me in spite of me I feel these feelings quietly You're cool but inconvenient Now my energy's depleted Take a seat, babe, if you need it Like I do 'cause I'm defeated Now I'm cancelled, I'm whatever I'm the best thing that you'll never have Now I'm lonely Yeah, if only I could text you But I'm holding out I know I'm not around enough to make me worth the wait It's like who wants to be close with someone who always goes away? And even when they're here it's like Where's your fucking head at? Why's it take so long to text back? You're so bad at loving people back So here's a plaque for your wall For the hall of fame of fucking off When things get weird Because I can't handle that again It's like that, it's like that
Hey, tell me what you want me to say You know I'm stupid for you Hey, can you come-a come out and play? You know I'm stupid for you I'm color-coding my moods You're yellow, I'm natural blue Let's get together and be green like my insides At least I'll match your eyes Jealous and hypnotized Let's match our faces and be equally in love Hey, tell me what you want me to say You know I'm stupid for you Hey, can you come and come out and play? You know I'm stupid for you Let's trash our whole afternoon Reciting recycled news Until we melt and go back to your hotel room I'll be your new favorite tune I'll be your black cloud by June But only when you miss the rain like I miss you
Did you know you have seeds in your hair And I'm gonna brush them out But I decide to leave them there When you smile you break my heart And the sun's very jealous of how beautiful you are I am just so lucky you exist The moon, the stars, the sky give you their kiss Do you feel this lucky with me too? ‘Cause I pinch myself To check that I'm not dreaming You're too good to be true And I'm screaming, I'm screaming Please don't wake me up I am too lucky to have you here with me You're by my side always And I feel obliged to feel great That I feel great (great) And I'm making this up as I go along ‘Cause I couldn't be arsed to write the rest of this song Because I'm lazy and you like me And I can't believe that I can't believe that you can stand me That's awesome (awesome) That's great (great) This has turned out pretty darn well (Okay, to the next bit now)
I don't know who you are I don't care what you've done Leave your worries behind you Relax in the sun Pick a field, any field Grass of green, sky of blue Please don't hate yourself I'm sure someone loves you We don't need to talk I'm happy to just sit We can just coexist We don't need to talk I find it helps me think Helps me clear out my mind Such a feeling of tranquillity One of a kind Smile at the world And the world might smile back Please don't act surprised If I smile in your direction It's the simple things I do That hint at my affection Truth be told I sometimes frown When I look at my reflection But frowns turn upside down When a field is your protection ... Don't hate yourself 'Cause I love you We don't need to talk Speak with your eyes There's no need to hide This field is my life This field is my life Things will work themselves out Things will work themselves out, oh Things will work themselves out Things will work themselves out, yeah
She's beautiful, she's got that look The one that all the writers write in books Imagine me with her, oh wow Here's your money, show me how She's so bright, defeats the night It pisses me off, but it feels so right How could I end up with her? How could I end up with you? I just wanna catch your feeling I can't stop believing You give love a different meaning All I wanna do is look in your eyes All I wanna do is tell you my lies ‘Cause I just wanna Catch your feeling tonight
Do you think I come across As a little bit arrogant sometimes I'm just confident on the outside But I'm a trainwreck on the in Do you think I come across As a little bit overboard sometimes I fake it till I make it and I make it Too far across the line And I hope you don't think of me Any differently And I hope you don't mind me Opening up I don't wanna confuse you With my therapist I hope one day you'll hold my hand And tell me it's okay to not be okay I think it's going to my head I care so much about What she thinks about me I think it's going to my head I care so much about What she thinks about me I went on Buzzfeed and did an online quiz To see if I liked you “Yes, would you like to share your result With your friends on Facebook or WhatsApp?” NO! Am I self-centred ‘cause I think you say things When you know I'll hear them Well I bet when you speak you forget that I exist ... I hope you think of me like I think of you And sometimes I get jealous when you Laugh at someone else Laugh at me, laugh at me ‘Cause I'm the funniest one here So laugh at me, please laugh at me (Laugh at me, laugh at me, laugh at me) ... And I hope you don't mind me Opening up I don't wanna confuse you with my therapist I hope one day You'll buy me CDs, buy me noodles Recommend me lots of new bands Think about me when I'm not there Prioritise me over your friends Buy me CDs
Look at them go, aren't they so cute together? Wish that was you and me Wish that we could last forever I've got nothing to say Nothing interesting at least You don't mind the silence But you feel that you should speak So we speak Make up backstories for strangers that we meet It's so hard to conversate I don't wanna concentrate It's so hard to demonstrate My attraction with just words It's so hard to flirt when you're killing random people But we're killing them together We're in this together (Are you ready? ARE YOU READY??) Your best friend's girlfriend's mate guessed it right first try Promptly I denied it But I wondered what made you cross his mind Do I make it obvious, this supercrush of mine? ... It's so hard to conversate And I don't wanna concentrate Yeah, it's so hard to demonstrate My attraction with just audio It's so hard to flirt when you're killing random people But we're killing them together We're in this together Yeah! (ha ha!)
I don't wanna tell u how I feel ‘Cause I'm afraid that you will get the wrong idea about me Don't want you thinking that I'm insecure I am for sure, diluted, yes, I'm not the best I want you to care ‘Cause I can't care for myself Oh no it happened again I don't want another sympathetic friend I don't love myself So how can I expect to be loved by anyone else Please don't worry because I am fine I just feel like a loner all of the time Optimism is a trap, you see Optimism will be the death of me I think it's going to my head, you know I just care so much about what she thinks about me I'm obsessed I bet now you think that I'm depressed I bet you want me off your chest I bet if you liked me then You wouldn't fancy me now Thats my curse, thats my game Thats the way I like to play I like feel, I don't care what Regret is easy, love is not
Sorry in advance, I'm sorta bad at this I've been distracted since you showed up here My room's been such a mess, but I don't care unless You tell me to, I guess, but we're both too stoned ... And just like the tides I'm persuaded by the moon And just like the moon It would take thousands of me to shine bright as you do Sorry in advance, I'm sorta bad at this I've been distracted since you showed up here My room's a fucking shithole (Room's a fucking shithole) I don't care for now, though It's better than being alone
I know what you're doing when you're falling apart I know how you're feeling when you're breaking my heart I know we've debated, but it's over, love That's all for us, well, maybe we can work it out I know what you're doing when you're falling apart I know how you're feeling when you're breaking my heart I know we've debated, but it's over, love That's all for us, well, maybe we can work it out ... I know why you're fuming at a thousand degrees I know you'd like to take one last shot at me I know we've debated, but it's over, love That's all for us, now why you want to swing at me? I know why you're fuming at a thousand degrees I know you'd like to take one last shot at me I know we've debated, but it's over, love That's all for us, now why you want to swing at me?
God I think I might be falling again I know I do this every time But honestly I think you kind of got me going crazy And I can't say what's on my mind (Not my fault, not my fault but, I just want you) To come a little closer Just come a little closer to me Not my fault I've got these walls But I just want you to come a little closer Just come a little closer, baby Didn't think that we'd be going this far But I think you caught my eye I know I'm not the type of girl to trip and fall this easy But baby, that was all a lie
I don't think that I would exactly call it love But it's dripping down my consciousness As you're slipping down my lungs Save it for a rainy day and maybe then you'll see That I am like the earth, old man There's no way around me ... I want the catharsis of knowing Something bad's about to happen But also knowing that I can't do anything about it Because your new house just don't shine Quite like the one you grew up in used to I wanna come and visit I wanna see this through, but I never will because you're just not what I need And I am just not what you want Though you're in everyone I meet and ... There is blood on the windshield And I am reeling as you gather your things I said I don't know what to do anymore As if I knew what to do before I can fuck up almost anything
So i'll blade by the graves and the game saves Slip into the societal nether that's been taken over by the new millennial wave A history of repetition, rejection, disassociation with mental illness and feeling gay It's tough when you don't know the rules so you can either take the bus or drive your shitty car to school You're ten feet away, and i can't even ask if you're doing okay We're not as dirty as we think But we're not as clean as you
If I could ask for anything, I'd only want my girl I've seen a lot of things, going on all around the world I had to leave her all alone I wrote this down, so I could let her know that I only want to see her You should take this heart of mine She's always had that heart of mine (Always had that heart of mine Always had that heart of mine) If I could win the lottery, we'd sail across the world Travel to the Philippines Buy an island, just for you and me Girls on the equator never even compare, I only want to see her
I know you won't remember when you're having fun Fun Dante's coming through the inferno Oh how you gonna get back to your condo uptown, Dante? Oh do you like that slow burn Oh won't you stay the night It'll be alright We'll turn out just fine Breathe boy Before you get a headache Make sure you drink some water On your way back home town All the papers will remember All about the boy who's married to the fire Fire ... Dante, you got lost in the inferno You lost out on that condo updown, Dante Oh do you like that slow burn Oh won't you stay the night Dante, get out of the inferno It's kicking you while you're on the ground, Dante Oh boy you're too young to burn Oh won't you stay the night It'll be alright We'll turn out just fine
No matter what you say or what you do When I'm alone, I'd rather be with you Fuck these other guys, I'll be right by your side 'Til 3005, hol' up ... On the radio, that's my favorite song Make me bounce around like I don't know, like I won't be here long ... I used to care what people thought, but now I care more I mean, nobody out here's got it figured out So, therefore, I've lost all hope of a happy ending Depending on whether or not it's worth it So insecure, no one's perfect ... It's kinda sad, but I'm laughing, whatever happens Assassins, I'm stabbed in the back of my cabin Labrador yapping, I'm glad that it happened, I mean it Between us, I think there's something special And if I lose my mental, just hold my hand Even if you don't understand, hol' up
Don't go, gotta know, please don't run away I'm a murderer, what can I say? Don't go, gotta know, please don't run away I'm a murderer, what does that change?
I watched you get undressed I must have turned bright red 'Cause I couldn't stand to face you 'Cause I liked what I saw Maybe we should just stay friends I climbed up your front porch And I doorbell ditched you And I felt so bad Couldn't cop to what I did So I laughed myself sick All the way to my car Tell me how you feel about me Do you like or like like me? Tell me what you really feel Do you like me? Just say you do
I never thought you'd end up with me for long, baby Running in quicksand to keep you here with me I had you in my head, baby, every day Towards the end, I just couldn't hear your name It's stress relief from everything Tell me, tell me you love me Come back, come back to haunt me Won't you, won't you let me be myself? I was holding on, but you didn't see my shots, baby All the times that I couldn't speak my thoughts, well, maybe Well, this is what I wanted, please don't feel so bad In love with a ghost, please don't (won't you) come back Well this is what I wanted, please don't feel so bad In love with a ghost, please don't come back Si puedes venir conmigo, amor Yo te enseño todo lo que hay ¿Por qué me tratas asi? Como no soy nadien
I'm kinda crazy but you don't seem to care You said you loved me then you left me So unfair I'm always hatin' on your mom jeans You swear You said you wanna be forever But who cares? Can I pretend to be the one you need? But we both know that you played me I know you see the best in me I wish I could say the same thing I'm kinda horny, but you don't seem to care I only see you in my wet dreams So unfair I kinda miss seeing your mom jeans I swear We absolutely could've fixed things But who cares? I don't see what you see in me I'm saying, I don't see what you see in me Why are you sick of me, sick of me? I didn't do anything, anything you didn't do I don't see what you see in me I'm saying, I don't see what you see in me But baby that's the thing, that's the thing I never did anything for you Bitch! Give up, give up, babe You're not foolin' anybody but you, babe You keep actin' like you're fed up, fed up, babe Everybody knows that you belong to me But don't listen to me Give up, give up babe You're not foolin' anybody but you, babe You keep actin' like you're fed up, fed up, babe Everybody knows that you belong to me But don't listen to me (Don't listen to me) Let's have sex, bitch
Please don't leave, I'm begging I cannot be by myself Can I go to Heaven? Even though I put you through Hell, hell I think I might be too drunk to Tell, tell If I wanna live or kill my Self, self, self, self, self I love the way you break me Oh, it's so contagious Break my heart 'cause you know I can take it Don't say sorry 'cause I know you're faking Just admit That you made a mistake Hey, hey After loving you, I'm kinda Drained, drained Wonder if I'll ever be the Same, same, same, same, same
I don't love you anymore lol, that's what she said (that's what she said) Try to tell me I'm a whore, baby. girl best believe it (best believe it) Cuz' I take pride in all the thighs that I've been in (that I've been in) And I won't lie I always cry when I finish Frankly, I'm just sick of getting texts from girls that aren't you And frankly, I'm just sick of getting sex from girls that aren't you Frankly, I'm just sick of getting left on read by girls like you Frankly, I'm just sick of getting head from girls that look like you Fuck your feelings and fuck what you've been through Cuz' it's my pity party baby Just this once can we not talk about you Cuz' it's my pity party baby Fuck what you think and fuck your point of view Cuz' it's my pity party baby Just this once can we not talk about you? Cuz' it's my pity party baby
When I feel so lost, without a plan or a purpose A cent or a dollar or even a cause I know where I need to go to feel better Somewhere that I know that I'll always belong Finally, I know that I'm not alone here Finally, I feel like I have a home here So when you're feeling low Or so damn distant and broken and lonely, just know that you'll never be alone There's places you can go, people you should know You don't have to do anything or be anyone, just follow the road Just come with me You'll have to see There's something in the air up here
Oh my God, I feel just how I used to feel Watching Danny Phantom, eating Happy Meals Every night at seven, watch my favorite shows Never really worried 'bout the to and fro's of the way life goes It's like a time machine just brought me there Wiped away my thoughts and cares And re-embraced the daylight there Or maybe, just maybe I think I'm starting to like myself I think I'm right where I need to be To be the best version of myself To be the version that I want you to see Oh, oh, oh, I feel like I found the secret I knew that I just can't keep it Bottled inside, I can no longer hide what I feel Every single goddamn day
I'm leaving the scene (scene) Oh, how it starts to consume me For better or worse And my eyes meet yours Whisper sweet into my ears You tell me words you know I love to hear You hold my hands so tight Just tell me Tell me you love me, and tell me you need me And you can haunt me, and never leave me So I can get lost in those eyes I know, I know
I'm tryna talk to you, but your friends are too loud Just between us two, I'm happy we made it out Look at the change, we've grown apart, and now I'm in your way I missed all the signs, you'll be happy tonight knowing I'm not here to stay It hurts a little less knowing you'll be okay I will try my best to keep a level head I'm tired of fighting just so we can make up A little after awkward conversations I wish you would've stayed I'll let you go, it's time for me to move on I'll be the first one, both of us will be gone I wish you would've stayed After we split, my mind was torn in two All the subtle things I would talk about with you Pick up the pace, we've grown apart, and now I'm in your way I know we both cried, you'll be happy tonight, as I'm not here to stay ... I'm trying, I'm trying not to forget The nice things that you said before your fall I'm trying, I'm trying not to forget The nice things that you said before your fall
Lying on the kitchen floor I know I shouldn't do it but I wanna do it more Wait, sorry, I zoned out What did you just say? Did you just call me pretty? You must be mistaken Or talking to a mirror Sorry I'm bad at words You're so stupid I'm going ra-ba-ba-ba-daaa, da-da Ah-ba-ba-ba-daaa, da-da Wait! Sorry, I zoned out What did you just say? Did you just call me pretty? Wow! Yeah, la la-la la la laaa Sorry, I'm so bad at this I put my heart inside a microwave A microwave, (Hey!) A microwave, (Hey!) A microwave for you (Hey!)
Darling, what am I to do? I like to think that I'm The only guy she'll see tonight You can call me what you like As long as you call me And you can kiss the skin from my lips til it makes you feel good I'm not sure if you want it, not sure if you need me too And you can taste the beer on every guy who talks to you But you can't stay awake forever No you can't stay awake forever ... Place your bets on who's lost their mind Take a pirouette under duvet set Sigh with perfect pitch and with time I'm not made for you But what else is new? Oh, lord she tells me that it's nothing I really hope it's nothing ... This just in; I am a total fucking dumbass And I've come to the uncomfortable conclusion I'll be spending the rest of my life in a state of constant paranoia Just let me follow you And I'll proceed to bang my head on every doorway and doorframe you see suitable for us to go through And I've found that the road to happiness is paved With rows and rows of very tempting parking spaces I'm not paranoid, I'm a realist I know you're gonna kill me!
You left me in the worst kind of way Still thinking that one day you might come back But these days I'm finally thinking straight And that's the straightest thought I've ever had Hey necrophiliac, what are u doing? I said, why u tryna fuck me if i'm dead to u? I'm screaming Hey necrophiliac what's wrong wrong with u? I dont know why you'd wanna fuck me if i'm dead to u? U always say Ur over me but that's fucking Bullshit I know u miss me Say it Say that u miss me now Won't quit Until u miss me Prove it Say that shit again Again & again & again & again I want it stuck in my head In my head, in my head, in my head, in my head Plz say that shit again I SAID, "U BROKE MY HEART" U SAID "boo hoo" I SAID "IM GONNA LEAVE" U SAID "please do" I SAID "I HATED U" U SAID "me too" WHAT I'M SAYING is DON'T COME CRAWLING BACK TO ME When u REALIZE THAT EVERYONE WILL SEE Right through ALL OF THE FUCKING BULLSHIT THINGS U do CAUSE THERE'S NOBODY ELSE LIKE ME For u CAUSE THERE'S NOBODY ELSE LIKE ME I'm never gonna be Anybody's something Until i can finally Get the fuck over u It's harder than u think Finding someone for me That could ever compete With somebody like u I can't help that i hate Every fucking girl i date Cause it always feels the same Like im cheating on u Hate that i have to say Babe, i made a mistake Thinking anybody Could have ever been u They'll never be u
So listen, I know you're probably with him And maybe for good reasons But you don't fucking need him, I warned you I tried my best to hide it But now I'm done denying You were perfect and I'm so sorry I'm such a dick but you still love me I still regret letting you leave me Don't you forget you used to need me I should probably take my own advice now And move on with my life now And stop singing about how you left me Maybe stop getting your advice from The guy you get your highs from If you want my advice, run, real quickly How can I love someone that can't stand The thought of loving me back Why do I think I need that, I know you Hate me, but one day, babe, you'll thank me For teaching you how to leave A piece of shit just like me I warned you ... Sometimes I wish I didn't live But I'm so fucking glad I did I remember what you said You were wishing I was dead Now you're wishing me the best 'Cause my song's stuck in your head I can't believe the things I did For some narcissistic bitch I'm so glad that I still exist Just so that I can rub it in
How come you only ever want to bring me down? Ask someone what'd you do? And ask one more 'cause you don't know what'd you do? You probably couldn't see how it's true I'm sorry they don't have more faith in you So then how come you only ever want to bring me down? How come it's every single time you come around? When I'm waking up but only 'cause I have to now So how come you only ever want to bring me down? How would I know? There's beauty when the blood clots too slow I'm a big fan of the look But it gets a little irritated (But I wouldn't fight it) I've got the shakes, but it ain't all bad The debt collector just called and said he's my best friend How did I deserve this kind of love? How come it feels like every year is a bad one? You're born a star and then wind up in the background You're hot enough, you still look good fucked up And just another in the gut might get you close to good enough
It feels like everything is falling short Where are the moments that we had before? I'm chasing someone that I've never known I've been keeping my cool It's exactly like you want me to But you've been bending the rules Placing favor in the solitude, it's all for you You're sleeping in, I know exactly what it means You're finding comfort in the space that's in between I hope you don't mind if I still have one last fantasy That I'll have a place to float on somewhere in your dreams ... So if everything is falling short, falling short Is there something for us anymore, anymore? Can we try to get the love back?
Salt can clean the wound of a message overdue The bricks we used to run our fingers down Erode at night but we don't notice now And I felt unforgiven when I last saw your brother It was the only thing that got to me And I felt terrified then so I ran to Ohio And hid among the frames of the small town streets The doctors still prescribe to those about to die It's one last sale to put down in the books I'd ask for help but I don't think you could And I lost grip of time when you drove off the highway Didn't need an exit sign, you were bulletproof And I felt terrified then so I left out the details And hid among the frames of the small town streets And I missed all the warnings when I asked bigger questions You said "beware of me, it's a slower sting" And I felt terrified then 'cause I hated your answers So I laughed and walked away I regret everything
I don't care much about you But I wouldn't mind if you liked me too Kisses on your hands, meet me in the bathroom I wanna be alone with you ... I don't care much about you But I wouldn't mind if you liked me too Kisses on your hand meet me in the bathroom I wanna be alone with you I wanna be you I wanna be just like you I wanna be you I wanna be just like you
I get sick every time you get in my way So just stay out of it for the sake of both of us Time will pass 'till you're out of my view, I hold my breath And I hold my breath 'till I pass out Wake up in a cast lying on the couch In the same room, but you'd treat it like I'm outside And every move, I'd think, I'd shut it down, and Intimidating, mask it as a prowess And I can't eat just thinking about it It's either say nothing or say the wrong thing I'm a little crazy but still try to— (Call me, call me) Don't have my number? Well, that's your loss And I'm too tired to continue on It's either say nothing or say the wrong thing (Look at the mess, I'm a little crazy but still try to call me) I'm a little crazy but still try to call me (And I can't take it, I'm a little crazy but still try to call me) Don't have my number? Well that's your loss (That's your loss, I'm a little crazy but still try to call me) And I'm too tired to continue on (But still try to call me) ... I see you every time I'll break your glass of wine And let the pieces stab your eyes I see you scream and cry But I won't help this time And let you bleed out on the sidewalk When they come to your house I'll turn the TV on And you'll be there on Channel 9 Then you take the remote I'll get kicked out the house 'Cause you said this movie's just for guys I don't really wanna be someone that gets in your way But I won't let it slide past my face, what you said yesterday I don't really wanna be someone that gets in your way Guess your way, but I guess you'll always have your way
I hate you for what you did And I miss you like a little kid I faked it every time, but that's alright I can hardly feel anything I hardly feel anything at all ... Somebody roll the windows down There are no words in the English language I could scream to drown you out I'm on the outside looking through You're throwing rocks around your room And while you're bleeding on your back in the glass I'll be glad that I made it out And sorry that it all went down like it did ... I try to stay clean and live without And I wanna know what would happen If I surrender to the sound Surrender to the sound
She planned ahead for a year, he said, "Let's play it by ear" She didn't want him to run, he didn't want her to fear Nobody said it'd be easy, they knew it was rough But, tough luck I fell in love today, there aren't any words that you can say That could ever get my mind to change She's enough for me, she's in love with me You're a doll, you are flawless But I just can't wait for love to destroy us I just can't wait for love The only flaw, you are flawless But I just can't wait for love to destroy us I just can't wait for love So, she put his heart in a bag, he wouldn't ask for it back He didn't want her to cry, she didn't want to be sad She said, "You better not leave me" This shit'll be fucked for days and weeks and months, but
Oh really You wanna kiss me Was that before or after you heard about mickey I tried my best to impress you Wrote every song i could about you Even got a fucking tattoo All in the hopes that you'd love me too But you Don't do Anything if It's not For you So play that Wallows Song again I need to hear it back I'm always too hard on myself I could've written that Wallows Song i bet I need to listen back I'm always too hard on myself I should've written that Wallows Song Wallows Song I'm crying again Wallows Song Wallows Song I'm crying again Don't tease me And then mislead me Cause i'll need 13 Reasons Why You wanna leave me Stop screaming The neighbor's sleeping I know ur ass just wants to fight But can that shit wait till tomorrow I'll return everything i borrowed Except i think i'll keep your heart though And all those burnt cd's of wallows I'm feeling hollow lately ... Do you mind if i ask you something? Cause its been tearing me apart all day Be blunt babe give me all or nothing Cause i've been wondering Why can't you Stay stay stay Why can't you Stay always ... I've been thinking about you all night long I've been thinking about that wallows song
Something about you already hurts Already know we will crash and burn I know you've been holding back You feel familiar in all of the worst ways You're double-booked on Valentine's Day I know you'll never want me back the same way That I do, that I do I know you Better than you Here's to us being left in the dust In a cycle we can't break Here's to us being left in the dust I just can't go back that way Oh, I'd kill to be an arsonist and burn bridges without shame You flipped a coin I'm second choice You spilled your guts on the counter While I cooked whatever you wanted Bitter déjà vu Guess it didn't matter anyways Fuck this, no one to blame but myself You're doing exactly what I would do Everyone's a hypocrite
i keep lookin at my phone but its not her i was stupid, thought I didn't wanna lose her i'm fucked up but i'm glad I didn't choose her ... i cant side best believe me bitch i tried i can never do it right i'm all caught up in your lies dont wanna hear it bitch u do this every time just wish i could say we're doing fine i'm ridin in my car wit a sidearm tryna find myself but it's 2 far everything feels so rushed theres either no time or 2 much there's no time think i gotta catch up ... and now i sit back and see what i've become i just wish u told me we were done and now i sit back and see what i've become i just wish u told me we were done i cant stand a minute away from you what is there to do stuck inside this mood i was stupid to wait for you but i didn't know that u were waiting too so we stopped yea we cut off the talking whenever i'd see u i'd just continue walking but its already gone played me like a pawn why'd it go so wrong wish i knew all along
Oh, my saviour Oh, why does a common fire hold so much power? If only we could be forever naive and pure If only we could lead painless futures If only there could be a forgiving world Maybe that was when I chose to stay fallen Lights A star A voice A twisted thought A touch A kiss A distorted dream Ripples A well A stone A multiplying desire A fruit A sin A holy mother I'm infected, I'm infected You have invaded and re-created me Stepped over my body Found a sunny spot Curled into a ball Spinning out the silk From my head to toe Inside the warm cocoon, I dreamt to be like you Though I know there's no undo What do I have left to lose? Split A sky An earth I fell into a crack A birth An egg A freshly opened membrane A cell A rot A face returned to ashes An art A wound A sentient canvas Breaking breaking breaking the shell Breaking out, oh break it now Show me how, show me how Listen up, my broken child Let's lament (Let's lament) Let's lament (Let's lament) The life, the death, the good, the bad The never ending curse we cast Control, control, control, release Control, betray, control, let go Conceal, reveal, unreal, surreal Invoke, evoke, decode, reload Let's lament (Let's lament) Let's lament (Let's lament) The past that only got to live in the incomplete holy land Celestial (Ayiah) We're astral (Ayiou) I'm reborn (Le rheaiah) Total liberation (Katre o lamenta) My tender skin A vagitus song (Essential) I breathed (Eventual) And screamed (Eternal) From my new lungs (Inevitable freeing of the soul)
With tears rolling down our faces We began to sing "They can never take anything from our souls" Louder and louder "They can never take anything from our souls" Louder and louder They shaved off my hair Fed me a foreign language Looking on the bright side (Yeah!) I'm alive I still remember all the people I love So come at me, and do your worst All this pain and suffer Don't stand a chance against our iron hearts As the morning came and went (Ah) And the people stayed and left (Ah) And the earth went 'round and around The stars never looked so kind (Ah) The wind ever so fragrant Through the tiny slit on the wall Every night I was invited to watch A theatre played by moonlit birds They spread their wings Carrying our silenced voices Singing our historic songs Letting everyone in the future know That we existed
I hope that our few remaining friends Give up on trying to save us I hope we come up with a fail-safe plot To piss off the dumb few that forgave us I hope the fences we mended Fall down beneath their own weight And I hope we hang on past the last exit I hope it's already too late And I hope the junkyard a few blocks from here Someday burns down And I hope the rising black smoke carries me far away And I never come back to this town again In my life I hope I lie, and tell everyone you were a good wife And I hope you die I hope we both die I hope I cut myself shaving tomorrow I hope it bleeds all day long Our friends say it's darkest before the sun rises We're pretty sure they're all wrong I hope it stays dark forever I hope the worst isn't over And I hope you blink before I do And I hope I never get sober I am drowning There is no sign of land You are coming down with me Hand in unlovable hand And I hope you die I hope we both die
Someone's gonna do something someone else will regret I speak in smoke signals and you answer in code The fuse will have to run out sometime Something here will eventually have to explode, have to explode You and me, lying on the tile floor Trying to keep cool, restless all night Sweating out the poison as the temperature climbs Staring up, up at the hundred-watt light that burns above Name one thing about us two anyone could love We roll out the red carpet when rotten luck comes down the road 5, 4, 3, 2, 1--watch for the flak Something here will eventually have to explode, have to explode
I was born when they took my name When the world turned wicked, when I joined their game But I turned and fought them, like you always knew I'd do I sat and dreamed at the foot of your bed You split my skull and reached inside my head And pulled out the pictures I'd been wishing I'd forget And you stitched me up then And wiped the blood from off my chin Now I sit on the rooftop's edge The muddy street beneath my swollen head Trying to forget you, to believe we'd never met And the sky is wrecked; full of rotting clouds From chimney mouths spewing smoke around And I can't stop coughing My lungs just won't calm down But I still keep grinning As the blood from my face stains the ground A bird, caught in the wires, bleating for help I can't provide I'm not that big I hope for the best, but nothing changes I'm sorry But I was blessed with bad eyes There's a lot that I miss, but I don't mind I'm not that old I'll find out what broke me soon enough
The ghost inside my head, it never sleeps It just rearranges thoughts and leaves me numb for weeks But I'm okay, yeah I feel fine Because I know there's more than one way to lose my mind To lose my mind Lose my mind To lose my mind The crows are at the fence, they never blink They just sharpen all their claws and bare their twisted teeth But I won't bend and I won't move Don't have a lot left, just anger, and something to prove So I can't lose So I can't lose So I can't lose The cold spreads through the house It bites my ears I can't feel my hands or feet and I'm too scared to sleep And now the ghosts are on the porch Got knives in hands, oh no, I think I've seen this before And I might lose And I might lose And I might lose And all this time, I've been watching you sleep And the strangest things have been happening to me, oh And all this time, I've been watching you breathe And the strangest things have been happening to me, oh
A hopeless romantic all my life Surrounded by couples all the time I guess I should take it as a sign I'm feeling lonely (Lonely) Oh, I wish I'd find a lover that could hold me (Hold me) Now, I'm crying in my room So skeptical of love (Say what you say, but I want it more) But still, I want it more, more, more I gave a second chance to Cupid But now, I'm left here feeling stupid Oh, the way he makes me feel That love isn't real Cupid is so dumb I look for his arrows every day I guess he got lost or flew away Waiting around is a waste (Waste) Been counting the days since November Is loving as good as they say? ... I gave a second chance to Cupid But now, I'm left here feeling stupid Oh, the way he makes me feel That love isn't real Cupid is so dumb I gave a second chance to Cupid (Hopeless girl is seeking someone) But now, I'm left here feeling stupid (Who will share this feeling) Oh, the way he makes me feel That love isn't real (I'm a fool) Cupid is so dumb (A fool for love, a fool for love)
What if I wanted to break? Laugh it all off in your face What would you do? What if I fell to the floor? Couldn't take this anymore What would you do, do, do? Come break me down Bury me, bury me I am finished with you What if I wanted to fight Beg for the rest of my life What would you do, do, do? You say you wanted more What are you waiting for? I'm not running from you, from you I tried to be someone else, but nothin' seemed to change I know now, this is who I really am inside Finally found myself, fighting for a chance I know now, this is who I really am
I'm going to make it bend and break (It sent you to me without wings...) Say a prayer, but let the good times roll In case God doesn't show (Let the good times roll, let the good times roll...) And I want these words to make things right But it's the wrongs that make the words come to life "Who does he think he is?" If that's the worst you've got Better put your fingers back to the keys... One night and one more time Thanks for the memories, even though they weren't so Great, "He tastes like you, only sweeter" One night, yeah, and one more time Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories "See, he tastes like you, only sweeter" Been looking forward to the future But my eyesight is going bad And this crystal ball... It's always cloudy except for (Except for...) When you look into the past (Look into the past...) One night stand... One night stand off! They say I only think in the form of crunching numbers In hotel rooms, collecting page six lovers Get me out of my mind and get you out of those clothes I'm a liner away from getting you into the mood, whoa
You said that you'd be home by nine But I want you by my side I try, I fantasize That you never disappoint me You should change your mind That's what it's for (That's what it's for) You should change your mind Just wanna leave, I just wanna talk If I'm a letter, then you're a postcard From some exotic place, somewhere very far The ice too thin to hold our weight It cracks, it breaks, we sink the same We walked, what felt like miles Only was three blocks You said you couldn't feel your hands I try, I realize That I'm always disappointing
AND IT'S ALL IN THE WAY WHENEVER I HUG YOU AND ALL IN THE WAY WHENEVER I TOUCH YOU AND I CAN'T ESCAPE THE STICK OF THE PASTE SO WHY DON'T YOU TAKE ME AWAY Cuz something about you Is not what I'm used to Is not what I've seen Cept in 18 Movies If all it took was a plan from the notebook Then 500 days Would dissolve like a cough drop And all of the snot would seep into fabric And all of the shame would be gone in a moment
She's a good kisser But ya know I can't suffice she might know I miss her So baby don't ya know when my face turns red Don't ask me if I'm good cuz I'll just say yes Yea she knows me better than I do And you know I can't get it up for you So baby don't ya know when my face turns red Don't ask me if I'm good cuz I'll just say yes So don't touch my hands, or I'll remember what I said I can't believe you -- it's all inside my head Forget the mentions of things you must've said Just come back and lay it all to rest ... I wish I could have met you when we were a bit older I wish I could forget you without me staying sober This was a long time coming so don't just go on running The reaction was oh so awful-- I think I wanna hurt you So don't touch my hands, or I'll remember what I said I can't believe you -- it's all inside my head Forget the mentions of things you must've said Just come back and lay it all to rest I said we needed some time to pick apart, our little dreams before we fall in love That's when you said we were over, that's what she said when we were overrrrrrrr Oh baby I can't remember what I said, oh baby I can't remember what I said, remember what I said, remember what I said
Sing us a song A song to keep us warm There's such a chill Such a chill And you can laugh a spineless laugh We hope your rules and wisdom choke you Now we are one in everlasting peace We hope that you choke, that you choke
I love the horrified look on your face. I want that body of yours. Love it. High. Poor thing. You're such a bad boy. Which one is your favorite? Scattered. You are still very good at using colorful eyes. My head hurts. You make me dance. I'm going crazy. I'm in your flesh and blood, in your bones. I'm in, I'm empty, you're a puppet of love. You're in pain in your chest, aren't you? You can't breathe, can you? I'll teach you that's love Whisper it to me in your empty voice. Good boy, you're wearing a collar, you're “Loveit” Are you crazy? No. Love is blind. I know you want to. I'll do it for you. Go for it? Ha-ha-ha. Wet, your red raw blood until you drown Itai itai itai no tonde yuke, till you're dead and sorry Stupid, stupid, stupid face You're such a bad boy You like pain, don't you? It hurts so much, it hurts my baby. Oh, you can't say anything? What? What? I'm going to eat you, sexually unrestrained. “what is loveit?” I'll eat you up to the marrow, down to your flesh and blood. You're an empty puppet now You're in pain, aren't you? You can't breathe, can you? I'll tell you that's love, ha-ha-ha You're a clown, whispering love You're “Loveit” in human form Have you lost your mind? No. Love is blind. You want to. I'll do it for you. Can you go? Ha-ha-ha. I'll pay for it, I'll pay for it, I'll drown in your filthy blood… I want to die. I want to die. I want to catch my breath.
Rows of houses all bearing down on me I can feel their blue hands touching me All these things into position All these things we'll one day swallow whole And fade out again and fade out This machine will, will not communicate These thoughts and the strain I am under Be a world child, form a circle Before we all go under And fade out again And fade out again Cracked eggs, dead birds Scream as they fight for life I can feel death, can see its beady eyes All these things into position All these things we'll one day swallow whole And fade out again And fade out again Immerse your soul in love Immerse your soul in love
Two jumps in a week I bet you think that's pretty clever, don't you, boy? Flying on your motorcycle Watching all the ground beneath you drop You'd kill yourself for recognition Kill yourself to never, ever stop You broke another mirror You're turning into something you are not Don't leave me high Don't leave me dry Don't leave me high Don't leave me dry Drying up in conversation You will be the one who cannot talk All your insides fall to pieces You just sit there wishing you could still make love They're the ones who'll hate you When you think you've got the world all sussed out They're the ones who'll spit at you You will be the one screaming out Don't leave me high Don't leave me dry Don't leave me high Don't leave me dry Oh, it's the best thing that you've ever had The best thing that you've ever, ever had It's the best thing that you've ever had The best thing you have had is gone away So don't leave me high Don't leave me dry Don't leave me high Don't leave me dry Don't leave me high Don't leave me high Don't leave me dry
I like you, but I need some space I like you kinda far away It's not hard to kill a day Lookin' at your face I like you, but I need some room Been givin' me your attitude It doesn't always stay that way I hate the aftertaste I don't wanna leave you hangin' on But when we fight, it's like a marathon Give me three days, three days alone, yeah We can fuck about it later if you want It's all we ever really do when something's wrong 'Cause you, you don't seem to like it when we talk I guess I'll see you later, see you later We can fuck about it later if you want Because we never fix the problems that we've got Baby, you don't seem to like it when we talk I guess I'll see you later, see you later, yeah You've been at my crib for like the seventh day up in a row You've been doin' silly things like checkin' who I follow I know you waitin' by the phone, but I just wanna be all alone tonight And it's all right, I won't lie to you But sometimes, when we fight It's like scars on my wrist when I think about the shit That we did to one another, baby
So when are you gonna sing for me? When are you gonna drink for me? I don't know, I don't know So when are you gonna sing for me? Ruinin' me completely It's true, ooh, ooh I miss having sex but at least I don't wanna die anymore And I think that's pretty cool I miss seeing the red on your face when I made you blush, hey But I think it's fine, it's cool But I think it's fine, it's cool My hobbies include Pushing away these girls that maybe really like me Cutting people off because I don't trust exciting But what the fuck have I done? I'm not even an icon But I still get death threats often So their meaning starts to soften
When we talk, I'm never wrong And if we don't fight, it won't last long Might unplug my phone at night When you need me most, I'll miss that flight It's avoidable, I'll destroy chances to be Better than I was before you and me Now we're at the part where you'll hate what you see What the fuck is wrong with me? I'm on my way to you, but I self-sabotage So I might drive my car and crash into your garage, ooh To get away from you, I'll self-sabotage If you like when we talk, I'll dislocate my jaw, ooh I'll piss you off and ask what's wrong And your reason's not good enough, no, no I want this to work so bad But I want what I can't have, no Make plans and break them to see what you say And then I'll be upset when you're mad for the day 'Cause you put on makeup and I'm still in bed What the fuck is wrong with me?
You can do anything you want All you gotta do is take it Oh you feel like you're a fraud? So what? Just fake it Told me I should leave right now I just got kicked out, Internet Girl, cause I write like shit Oh and right now, there's no place for me They released a brand new sound Far from what the eye can see Don't you know Tell me that you want it, just tell me that you want it Tell me that I'm better than anyone's fucking done it You saw me before the show, I said that I had to go But you get that I'm on the road, but fuck, I'm missing home, yeah Travelling around and round, it took a Toll on my mental health, I'm feeling Washed up, never felt so down, I'm feeling Washed up, never felt so down, fuck Never get it, never get it, never get it, uh I know I said it, never meant it when I said it, uh Never get it, never get it, never get it, uh Studious, you're such a fucking copacetic You can do anything you want All you gotta do is take it Oh you feel like you're a fraud? So what? Just fake it
Panic was never a factor I looked into the maw of a burning reactor And so my soul could soar With my heart on the altar Of science Like an obedient dog Pity is never a factor When mercy is a sign of a talentless actor And as you grow, its hold on your throat starts to falter And once you go beyond pure humanity's border You will come running back like a dog A wounded dog Run back like a dog A wounded dog Run back like a dog A wounded dog Run back like a dog To Her I know of pain and devotion A gear in the machine grew immune to corrosion Go on, turn back the clock I will set it in motion all over Like an obedient dog So won't you tell me What do you know of devotion? Be grateful for the freedom of lacking emotion Accept your future path wasn't yours to be chosen And even if it takes you decades, I know that You will come running BACK LIKE A DOG A WOUNDED DOG RUN BACK LIKE A DOG A WOUNDED DOG RUN BACK LIKE A DOG A WOUNDED DOG RUN BACK LIKE A DOG A WOUNDED DOG RUN BACK LIKE A DOG A WOUNDED DOG RUN BACK LIKE A DOG A WOUNDED DOG RUN BACK LIKE A DOG A WOUNDED DOG RUN BACK LIKE A DOG A WOUNDED DOG TO ME
Love may be man made But it must exist It's what you want the most And most resist Love's polluted No, no it's pure It's convoluted One thing I could say for sure I couldn't love you anymore I couldn't love you anymore I couldn't love you anymore I couldn't love you anymore I couldn't love you anymore It's a game of fetch We'll never win You throw me out It brings us back You throw me out again Loves an affliction No it's a cure It's a contradiction that harms and heals Adores and abhors I couldn't love you anymore Love is a tantrum Love is an interlude Love is an instinct Not now dear, I'm not in the mood anymore No no no no no Yeah yeah yeah yeah It's no big deal It's not worth losing sleep You over analyze The simplest things Loves what you take But can never give Loves what you hate You'll never figure out what it's for I couldn't love you anymore
I feel at some point I broke my mind I'm always searching, the silent type How do you all make it look so easy? You open your hearts up so quickly, it scares me She's an artist, paints across my chest Goes to parties, act like hotel guests Wake up Monday, now it's over Don't you know no one gets what they came here for? I could paint her, wrapped around her We could make such a pretty picture Oh, so happy, oh, oh, so happy I'm pretty cool once you get to know me But I'm just the same, I've got a boring name Across the world from what you want and what you came here for So I'll wait here for you I said, "Please, just let me stay" Oh, just let me stay, oh I'm sorry, it's all so predictable I'm sorry, it's all so predictable, I know
She shines in a world full of ugliness She matters when everything is meaningless Fragile, she doesn't see her beauty She tries to get away Sometimes it's just that nothing seems worth saving I can't watch her slip away I won't let you fall apart I won't let you fall apart I won't let you fall apart I won't let you fall apart She reads the minds of all the people as they pass her by Hoping someone can see If I could fix myself I'd— But it's too late for me We'll find the perfect place to go where we can run and hide I'll build a wall and we can keep them on the other side But they keep waiting...and picking... ...and picking...and picking... ...and picking...and picking... ...and picking...and picking... ...and picking...and picking... It's something I have to do (I won't let you fall apart) I was there, too (I won't let you fall apart) Before everything else (I won't let you fall apart) I was like you (I won't let you fall apart)
Sometimes it takes up all I have inside to focus on what’s good in life Appreciate things and love and laughter We used to have so much fun It seems to me that I was just fine when I was around you Now comfort me and bar my way to the door Threaten me with your dark eyes my dear Push me towards the ivory colored wall And make me sob and cry for mercy oh I’m sure I’m gonna go insane right there in your arms You rip up my body I believe it was always yours I wish you would throw stones at me So that I’d stop showing up at your door every night So starved to the bone of love and laughter But I can’t breathe oh and I know I brought this on myself Now my voice fails and I’ve got a feverish head And you drive me out Out in the cold into a fuckin’ snowstorm Have you lost your mind my dear? Have you lost your mind? All of the words we said are strewn across the wooden floor And it seems like everything falls apart these days The ground I’ve conjured up for us It’s going to rot if I don’t stop wreaking havoc We’re running up and down Up and down Up and down the whole damn time my dear Now comfort me and bar my way to the door Threaten me with your dark eyes my dear Push me towards the ivory colored wall And make me sob and cry for mercy oh I’m sure I’m gonna go cuckoo’s nest right there in your arms Now rip up my body I believe it was always yours Always yours to have I’ve opened all the gates And letting in all the agony that I could find And oh I tried to connect to anyone for so long
Haha, they're drugging us That's how God gets inside the head Making you feel like it was you saying the things it said The signifiers have no value for us anymore Death is reunion, though we've been over all this before A blushing Christian-bot is something I am not I could teach you a lot, I think you'd learn a lot Are you afraid? Or just don't dare? Or just don't wanna? Or just don't wanna? ... Counting wolves in your paranoiac intervals Nobody's leaving, nobody is off the beat You shouldn't try to unpeel my Pavlovian bells You should be fucking with no one else I am tripping out on all your future shock I am tripping out on all your body rock Only I see you deeper than you see yourself You should be fucking with no one else ... Now the anxiety is my one source of energy Although it is so wasteful keeping all of it inside of me I feel, I feel like it is such a cruelty to be made Self-aware of actualization inside of a simulation I know how it feels It feels, feels ugly Body dysmorphia I know how it feels Body dysmorphic Body dysmorphia
Fly, broken wings I know you are still with me All I need is a nudge to get me started Fly, broken wings To somewhere we can be free Closer to our ideal Teary-eyed Once-gentle soul I watched as you rotted away The mirror says that I still remember hope Teary-eyed Once-gentle soul I watched as you rotted away The mirror says that I still remember hope Mmm You're doing what you love Isn't that enough? Isn't that enough? A genius, perfect job Isn't that enough? Isn't that enough? Again and again You locked me down, I locked me down We stakеd me to the ground The soil gavе me warmth Please die, little dreams Kill the camellias in me Wouldn't it be easier to give in? Why are these hands chasing dreams out of my reach? Is my thirst for normalcy "odd"? Fly, perfect wings (Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye) Where have you been hiding? (Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye) Bring me to the mind that got us started Fly, perfect wings (Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye) Show them who I can be (Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye) For the one last time, if you will That's all
I wanna be your love I wanna make you cry And sweep you off your feet I wanna hurt your pride I wanna slap your face I wanna paint your nails I wanna make you scream I wanna braid your hair I wanna kiss your friends I wanna make you laugh I wanna dress the same I wanna defend you I wanna squeeze your thighs I wanna kiss your eyelids And corrupt your dreams I wanna crash your car I wanna scratch your cheeks I wanna make you sick I wanna sell you out Want to expose your flaws I wanna steal your things I wanna show you off I wanna tell you lies I wanna write you books I wanna turn you on I wanna make you cum Two hundred times a day I wanna dry your tears Every time you're sad I wanna be your what's happening I wanna be your only friend I only go all the way This time I'm not pretending ... They're monitoring my subconscious massacres I know Bringing it closer to the surface so it's easily pervertible I wanna be a beast I want to make you proud And play with your head I wanna take you out Make you feel adored And buy you everything I want to hurt you bad Make you paranoid And say the sweetest things I wanna help you grow And for eternity I want to be your what's happening (What's happening?) I see car bombs in your eyes (Can you clap your hands?) (Clap-clap!) (Can you clap your hands?) (Clap-clap!) Oooooohhh! Can you sing it? I hear angels apologize
A look so quick, a movement so slight You could almost imagine it didn’t just happen But everything will change, in just one look, one little glance It’s not passing fascination now ... And it’s physical, it’s like standing at the edge: Your blood starts to pump, ‘cause you’re worried you might jump And your head throbbing like a heart And your heart throbbing like a drum And the drums throbbing like the point is just go ahead and jump
So I looked into your eyes And I saw the reflection Of a coward that you and I both hate very much And then I grabbed a knife And I let the blood out of your throat And I smashed those tiny mirrors inside of your skull And I got to thinking If I don't go to Hell when I die I might go to Heaven If I don't go to Hell when I die I might go to Heaven If I don't go to Hell when I die I might go to Heaven If I don't go to Hell when I die I might go to Heaven Might go to Heaven, but probably not
Let's have bizarre celebrations Let's forget who, forget what, forget where We'll have bizarre celebrations I'll play the Satyr in Cyprus, you the bride being stripped bare Let's pretend we don't exist, let's pretend we're in Antarctica Let's pretend we don't exist, let's pretend we're in Antarctica Let's have bizarre celebrations Let's forget when, forget what, forget how We'll have bizarre celebrations We'll play Tristan and Iseult, but make sure I see white sails Maybe I'll never die I'll just keep growing younger with you And you'll grow younger, too Now it seems too lovely to be true But I know the best things always do
When I met you I was just a kid Hadn't built up my defenses So I gave my heart completely Vaseline over the lenses Memories dont go away I remember every day I never ever stop wondering Wondering if you still think of us I dont need a photograph Cause you've never left my mind No you've never left my mind I remember feeling like a ship Whose captain was too drunk to steer And you watched as I was sinking Waving sadly from the pier Memories dont go away I remember every day I never ever stop wondering Wondering if you still think of us I don't need a photograph 'Cause you've never left my mind No you've never left my mind Its such a burden to carry 'round The vestiges of dead dreams And I dont want to make a wake out of my life I just had to let you go
It's taking over me, it's taking everything I have To keep myself from wanting to be apart of you Inside my ailing mind I bribe myself to think that I am made for you what can I do for us to make it through I know it's hard to see the wounds inside of me I'm hiding underneath all my suffering And even if I cry I'll never close my eyes To see through all the lies you bestowed to me When all is clarity the hate you gave to me With all sincerity hurts like a disease The wings that brought you here will take you far and near But you will always be no angel to me You fill me with distrust I'm writhing in disgust as I am told another person has loved you till it hurt I want to seep inside, I want to sleep beside you when Your heart depends on stranger's lust just to feel alive
I love you till the day I die So don't die today, please don't die today Everything but you is an ugly lie That's not how you pray, that's not what you say If I'm here when you're gone, I'll fall apart Stop your crying now, stop your crying now What's the point of life without my heart? You're not dying now, you'll survive somehow Do you want to die together? Yes I do, yes I do Do you want to die together? Yes I do, yes I do Do you want to die together? Yes I do, yes I do Do you want to die together? It's been the night since you've been gone Please, I have to go, please, please let me go What's the use of writing one more song? 'Cause it's what you know, 'cause it's what you know It was you and me, that's what you said And it's always true, aren't I here with you? I may look alive, but inside I'm dead Then let's make it true, let's make it true
Grief is an anvil to the skull Grief has an echo that lives in silences Inside of silences Grief is the black ink that rushes to fill in the void she left When nothing is okay You knowing that you're not alone only makes it feel sadder Loss is an evil light That takes root behind your eyes Illuminating what you're not ready to see And won't let you turn away And won't let you un-hear the venom that it has to say When everything is fucked You knowing that you're not alone only makes it even saddеr When everything is fuckеd You knowing that you're not alone only makes it even sadder Slumping in alleys swallowing voices cruise shaped war windows No one's happy here we think too much of ourselves Yet It's still not enough, you're having a plot twist I send an asylum of good luck Ergo we're equals is easily a mess to unwound A changing line positing a question Hex to impress some Rude Boy Thomas once famously said "The novel of bullshit is dead" Though all the people can't be all dog, all the time He wants you to know he's joking even when he isn't The cat-o-nine detects avant-garde Properly possess the shape The hokey psychos in cardigans I'll only get to heaven if I'm written in (that's your line) No musicians to play (pay) Guitars refuse the work The flanger is in flames The best shit is apropos of nothing so
Ocean blue What have I done to you? Cut so deep Yet growing through and through Drawn apart, New York and London All I see now are distant drumlins The roads I knew became a city And I wonder, will you wait for me? Although I'm far away I know I'll stay I know I'll stay Right there with you Though it might be too late What would you say? What would you say? What would you do? I built a hive, became one with the bees But we fell like rain, got lost into the sea If I don't know, the wind will carry me So just hold tight Over and over many setting suns I have run, I have waited for the rain to come When through that mist, I see the shape of you And I know, and I know that I'm in love with you
So it's over, I didn't realize It's so much colder But it was no surprise Did you ever get to know me? 'Cause it has never been so plain to see And when you say you won't forget me Well I can tell you that's untrue 'Cause every day since you left me I thought less and less of you And I've worn out all the reasons To keep on knocking at your door Could be the changing of the seasons But I don't love you anymore The door is open, you whispered to me As you stood frozen in deep uncertainty I hope that you know what I am thinking Before you go with your heart sinking You said "Come back and spend the night Come back and spend the night with me"
Six hours and I feel the same Black powder and acid rain What's a girl to do? Be as sweet as you I have to go You said you're drunk, I said, "I know" You said you think I'm gonna let you drive home I've made a list I think you owe me this What do you know? If you close your eyes and listen to what's right outside your door You won't be giving in Go ahead, just cover it up Let's pretend we're ordinary We could be in heaven But it's never enough It's mine If the world's so mysterious How can we be ordinary? Everything is easy Everybody is stuck And that's fine Cracked mirror brings seven years But your luck never disapears You'll be history if future disagrees Take me home What do you want? What do you need? It's hard to separate the goodness and the greed When the walls cave in We shed our infant skin And then we grow How far? How long? Till this road's overgrown What now? Be strong There must be something going on Somebody has to know, somebody has to know Nobody wants to know They got it wrong
lyrics